Scared to death

[Tiffaney78]

My husband and I tried to concieve for over a year and finally got pregnant only to lose it in July of 2012 at eight weeks pregnant. My husband and I split up shortly after and I blame it partially on the fact i couldn't carry his baby. I found out about two weeks ago that I am infact pregnant again, of course by another man. I am scared to death that I am going to lose this pregnancy and I have no idea how to let go of the fear. I am seven weeks today and I can't even tell you how many tests I've taken LOL. i have an ultrasound on the 26th and so scared not to see anything that it makes me sick to my stomach. My hcg levels were 1050 on a thursday and 3200 the following monday and the doctor was VERY excited about the outcome, but to me it just doesnt seem high enough for a four day span! I've been having mild cramping and almost pulling feelings on both sides of my hips which feels wierd!
i guess I've left out that the father has made it very clear to me that he wants me to abort this baby because this was not the plan...and i shouldnt be allowed to make that decision on my own. I have an amazing supportive boyfriend who is going to be around but has had a vasecnony so if this pregnancy doesnt work out, then it's never going to happen. Sorry this is so long...it's just that no one can understand what I'm feeling..

 

[bekkie]

I'm not going to say I know what you're going through... I have no advice... just wanted to send you a big and I hope everything goes well for you

 

[catherineq87]

Hope everything goes well for you too hugs

 

[jojo_b]

So sorry you're having such a hard time can't imagine how tough it must be for you to relax and believe in this pregnancy. Can you try hypnotherapy to help you get through these first few weeks?xx

 

[Tiffaney78]

The first pregnancy the yolk sac continued to grow and the fetal pole stopped and i had to have a dnc as the baby wouldn't unattach so to speak. people say if your not bleeding your fine, but what they don't understand is i never bled the first time around either! i would think the way my first miscarriage happened would be a fluke and probably wouldn't happen again at least not the same way...but I'm still nervous..

 

[jojo_b]

Totally understand. Must be so hard xx