WackyMumof2
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So hubby and I have decided we need to separate until I can get the right help in place for my anger issues. Beginning to suspect IED but will need the GP to confirm that. I've been in denial for so long and thought I had it under control. So it's looking like it's back onto the Prozac, under a Psychologist as well as my GP and some serious CBT to help me understand and control my anger. He's at his mother's with DS1 and DS2, I'm here at home with DS3 and we are trying to keep things as normal as we can by him coming home every night for dinner with the kids. We are on good terms but the anger is affecting the kids - more often than not I'm not even aware of it. He still loves me, he's still supportive of me but until I'm on the right track, he can't be here and the kids don't need to be affected by it. He still plans on being at the birth which I want anyhow as well as being home for a few days after. If all goes to plan with getting these things in place for me, he'll try a couple of weeks back at home to help support me but the boys will remain with their grandmother for a further 6-8 weeks just until we know for sure though I have said I want them at home at least 1 night each a week. Bit further down the line as I learn to control my emotions I'll have them both at home together. But I am so scared that I'm not going to be able to get hold of him when I go into labour because he's such a heavy sleeper and will easily sleep through a ringing phone. I can't do this on my own if I can't drive in labour so I'll have DS3 to deal with as well and labour and birth on my own. I know I'm in a better position than most solo parents at the moment as there is hope for us (he didn't want to leave but he had no choice) but the reality that I could have this baby on my own in my home with a scared toddler scares me. I'm not allowed a home birth because of GD and if I do go into labour late at night, I'm f**ked. I have arrangements in place for DS3 but it's not recommended to drive in labour and in all honesty, it's not something I want to risk nor do I want to turn up at MIL's in labour looking for hubby because she's got a full house (a house guest I CAN'T stand) and for me, labour isn't a public event. Has anyone else had these fears? Please tell me I'm not being irrational?