self pitty thread....sorry

[mummy2lola]

after 18 months of keeping high hopes and spirits today im feeling like i just cant cope anymore.im crying at adverts,the dog,food,drink...everything is setting me off for no reason.

last nite it was my best friends baby shower (pg after first try) and whilst sitting there as she was opening all her gifts and all the other girls were giving their experience at their babies liking each product i thought,i cant do this anymore,its breaking my heart everytime the witch arrives and its not happening.I saw the nursery and it was stunning,everything exactly how id love it and i found myself resenting my best friend for having a perfect life and i hate being like this.

my fs has told me if any tests come back saying that we need help ttc that he wont help until i have lost 7 stone.ive lost 2.2 stone already but i feel like what gives him the right to play god,just coz im big does not mean i would make a bad mother.i see druggies,teen pregnancies that arent wanted,alcoholics and it all JUST happened for the,.im taking soooo many vitamins,i temp,i check cm,i dont drink alcohol and never done drugs,what gives them the right to be a mum before me.

ill be ok again tomorrow,i think im just having a very bad day since the baby shower and im sure ill get over it.Im sorry to put a thread like this on here but no one else gets how hard this is and i needed a way to get it all out xxx

 

[Scamp]

Can't really say much but big
xxx

 

[mummy2lola]

thanks hun xx

 

[Barnesmaries]

awwww your brave even going to a baby shower, personally i couldnt atm . lots of for you and i hope you get some good luck coming your way v soon. x

 

[mummy2lola]

thank u,even thats made me cry lol i love u girlies u know xx

 

[678star-bex]

That must have been really hard. Does ur friend know u r ttc? At least u have an appt with a fs. Thats really good news & u sound like u know a lot about ttc and about ur body so thats good too.

I know its difficult staying positive and hopeful esp with everythin around u, but come on here & vent ur frustration with the lovely ppl on here that understand. maybe chat with ladies in the ltttc boards as that has given me a lot of support after 22 months & understanding that there r ladies feeling the same as we do & r seeing the fs too.

 

[Barnesmaries]

thank u,even thats made me cry lol i love u girlies u know xx

aww hun

 

[MrsPOP]

Im really sorry you feel so low hun. You've done amazingly well losing 2.2 stones so far. How have you managed that can I ask? Ive lot 2.5 stones quite rapidly in order to TTC and want to lose some more but at a slower rate whilst I TTC, though if it doesnt work this month Im going back on my quicker diet.

 

[mummy2lola]

That must have been really hard. Does ur friend know u r ttc? At least u have an appt with a fs. Thats really good news & u sound like u know a lot about ttc and about ur body so thats good too.

I know its difficult staying positive and hopeful esp with everythin around u, but come on here & vent ur frustration with the lovely ppl on here that understand. maybe chat with ladies in the ltttc boards as that has given me a lot of support after 22 months & understanding that there r ladies feeling the same as we do & r seeing the fs too.

thanks hun,i see uve been trying for 22 months and im sorry that i rant on when mines only 18 months,but thank u for being so supportive.she does know im ttc.shes been sooooo understanding about my feelings through her pg,she doesnt mention it unless i do.asks if im up for seeing her if her bumps bigger,she truely has been amazing so i felt like i couldnt let her down by not going to the shower.i hope u get ur bfp soon xx

 

[mummy2lola]

Im really sorry you feel so low hun. You've done amazingly well losing 2.2 stones so far. How have you managed that can I ask? Ive lot 2.5 stones quite rapidly in order to TTC and want to lose some more but at a slower rate whilst I TTC, though if it doesnt work this month Im going back on my quicker diet.

thank hun.ive lost that in 2 months,ive just cut out eating rubbish (iwas eating alot lol ) i dont eat after 5pm and i do 30 mins on my exercise bike every nite.well done to u to,what have u done? i think mines come off so quick coz i have soooooooo much to lose lol xx

 

[sianyld]

hey hun,

Im so sorry u feel so low! i have been feeling quite the same as u lately...this ttc lark is taking a hell of alot out of us isnt it!
I agree with u hun, some people ie druggies etc get preg why not us!? as for the weight loss - well done hun losing 2stone is a big milestone 4 u, u shud b very proud! i think u've shown enough willing in my opinion to get help if ur losing weight.
Dr's r a pain in the arse - they just have to follow protocols tho i spose but they just have no idea how it feels month after month and no change!
i went to a mates baby shower recently too and just tried my best to hide my true feelings - not that it was easy! One day i hope in the not so distant future - we will be mummies it just has to happen! and when it does those babies will be the most appreciated and loved babies in the world as we know how much they were wanted!

Lots and lots of xxx

 

[LaRockera]

Oh honey, I'm so sorry for all those stupid depressing feelings that are getting the best of you at the mo! Here, have a hug!

As for the weight thing, I don't think it's got anything to do with you being a bad mother. Not at all. I'm sure your doctor could not have possibly meant it that way.

I have read in numerous scientific sources that extra weight can indeed be an issue for some people ttc. Yes, there are many overweight ladies that manage to get pregnant, but everybody is different. I think perhaps your doctor implies that if you manage to lose the weight he advises you to, you may not even need any help from the fs. I know it's not an easy thing to lose weight, and that you want your baby now dammit, after all this time of trying and trying, but perhaps it could make a big difference for you?

We're all here to support you in any decision you'll take, and encourage you all the way. By the way there is a health&weight loss section in BnB. I'm sure you'll find loads of support there.

Good luck to you. Keep the faith, because you will become a mum sooner or later, and a brilliant one too!

 

[mummy2lola]

thank u hun,i know ur going through so much at the moment aswell,i keep feeling bad for my rant now as im not alone in this experience with u lovelies and ur soooo understanding and reasurring.i wanna be the first to hear about that bfp of urs this month.after uve poas bypass ur oh and come straight to me lol xx

 

[MrsPOP]

hey hun,

Im so sorry u feel so low! i have been feeling quite the same as u lately...this ttc lark is taking a hell of alot out of us isnt it!
I agree with u hun, some people ie druggies etc get preg why not us!? as for the weight loss - well done hun losing 2stone is a big milestone 4 u, u shud b very proud! i think u've shown enough willing in my opinion to get help if ur losing weight.
Dr's r a pain in the arse - they just have to follow protocols tho i spose but they just have no idea how it feels month after month and no change!
i went to a mates baby shower recently too and just tried my best to hide my true feelings - not that it was easy! then i found out that my SIL is preg by accident on the pill (no job, no home,/that goes for her and her OH) it sucks big time!
One day i hope in the not so distant future - we will be mummies it just has to happen! and when it does those babies will be the most appreciated and loved babies in the world as we know how much they were wanted!

Lots and lots of xxx

This Doctor understands just how hard it is I know this is only my 2nd cycle but Im really feeling the pressure and Im convinced there is something wrong with me...we do have feelings too sometime you know (well some do anyway, I wouldnt say my GP does coz she's rubbish lol).

I wish everyone can get their bfp's soon. We definately deserve them so much!

 

[sianyld]

DONT FEEL BAD!!! I had a big rant yesterday! we all gotta do it xxx

 

[mummy2lola]

Oh honey, I'm so sorry for all those stupid depressing feelings that are getting the best of you at the mo! Here, have a hug!

As for the weight thing, I don't think it's got anything to do with you being a bad mother. Not at all. I'm sure your doctor could not have possibly meant it that way.

I have read in numerous scientific sources that extra weight can indeed be an issue for some people ttc. Yes, there are many overweight ladies that manage to get pregnant, but everybody is different. I think perhaps your doctor implies that if you manage to lose the weight he advises you to, you may not even need any help from the fs. I know it's not an easy thing to lose weight, and that you want your baby now dammit, after all this time of trying and trying, but perhaps it could make a big difference for you?

We're all here to support you in any decision you'll take, and encourage you all the way. By the way there is a health&weight loss section in BnB. I'm sure you'll find loads of support there.

Good luck to you. Keep the faith, because you will become a mum sooner or later, and a brilliant one too!

thank u hun.i know the doctor didnt mean i wouldnt b a good mum it just feels like it sometimes i think its just the way i am today,im thinking to hell with everything lol gl with ur bfp this month too xx

 

[sianyld]

 

[TTCNumbertwo]

I can't believe doctors can refuse treatment because of weight- I swear i would sue them for discrimination! Especially after 18 months, they should be doing everything they can to help! I'm keeping my fx for you!

 

[mummy2lola]

i dont think any harm was intended mrspop and to me my fs was horrid and didnt understand at all,my gp is lovely but i think there is a big difference in the two xx

 

[mummy2lola]

I can't believe doctors can refuse treatment because of weight- I swear i would sue them for discrimination! Especially after 18 months, they should be doing everything they can to help! I'm keeping my fx for you!

thank u hun. his exact words were "at ur size we wouldnt recommend u get pg so we wont b offering any help for at least a year,when u shouldve been able to lose all ur weight" i understand there can be complications but surely meds shouldnt b such a big deal xx