BTP, meant to ask if you got Sophie sorted at preschool?
Yes thanks, she is going in 2 hours tomorrow, same on Thurs then starting afternoons Mon, Wed and Thurs next week! We got there and she wanted to stay, she made 2 friends in the time i stood and sorted the days out! I think she will be fine. Morning sessions are full but she doesn't get out of bed anyway, she is having 1.30-4 for now, then she can stay the full session if we want or she wants which includes tea time, and then she stays til 5.30, i think that's too late though for now as its not a child care option for us its just to get her used to other children and a mini school routine and being away from us!
Thanks for asking!
Btp my impression of you dh is someone who was a Proud man who feels like a failure because he can't work and his self esteem is such that he lays around feeling sorry for himself, he is possibly so scared of losing you he is pushing you to the limit because he thinks you will leave anyway ! He try's to make himself feel better by looking on the net and now possibly does it to see what you do !
I hope I haven't crossed a line ? Men are funny things I had a friends dh who did exactly the above x
Btp GG really makes sense. I have heard that it's quite common for people to test the ones they love when they're feeling vulnerable. They push them away to prove to themselves that they won't come back. Plus, excuse me for saying so but it must have really knocked his confidence that he didn't get you pregnant in the traditional way. Could you seek counselling?
To a point this is the case, he did feel a bit useless when he had to stop work, but he has a very high self confidence about himself so that would be impossible to knock! Even now he thinks he is gods gift to women and what a lucky woman i am!!(although perhaps that is a front
)
My ex husband was on self destruct so i know what that is like! (the scared of loosing you bit was exactly what happened with us and his alcoholism he just kept pushing til i went)
The baby thing, I never actually told him that the syringe was successful, i managed to dtd mid month and not being a man of women's cycles he has always believed Rosie was from dtd, although he was ok with it anyway, he had seen me do so much daft stuff ttc over the months I think that was not a surprise!!
(it was still his 'super sperm' that did the job however it got there!)
So I agree the not working setting it off more, and the proudness being an issue, he is a terrible communicator also and i think atm i have given up doing all the talking and asking! (I have always been the one int he relationship to make the effort i suppose!)
We did chat a bit last night, and its a process as i am still annoyed at him for shouting in my face, I do see his problem, and i think his worst thing is he is in pain daily, and that must be awful, and draining, but we still have our lives to get on with.
Fishy I don't think he would accept counceling yet, but if things got to breaking point i would seek outside help before they broke, i do try and remember the reasons we are together!
Thanks for your thoughts!
Right i have to go for now, dentist this morning, just to sort out what happens next!
I am loving Rosie's walking everywhere atm, it is so cute, she looks way too small to walk, and she puts her arms in the air, its like a mini zombie stomping about!!!
Oh and she went from 12.30-4.20 between a feed last night!!!
Except after 3 hours i woke up worried about her!! BUT it is the first time in ages I woke up myself and was not disturbed! Feeling much better for that!
Back later to catch up!
He is turning into such a cheeky boy and he is so funny, but the new found shrieking is not so fun! 
