BeachyBronzer
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Today has been a really really awful day. Started off this morning feeling pretty happy and relaxed, eating breakfast and looking out at the nice sunshine. Me and DP had just been to the hospital yesterday for a check up and had a scan which puts me a week ahead of what i thought i was. I'm now 17wk+4 But sometimes i feel like its only me who's caring about this pg, he doesn't ever ask me questions about how im feeling or anything. He never starts a conversation about anything baby related. Also i've been trying to organise to get away for a weeks sunshine holiday with him, as i know it will be near impossible after baba is born, but it falls on deaf ears. Its like this pg is all on me and not on us.
So anyways back to this morning, i'm halfway through my bowl of cereal DP gets up and starts banging around in the living room sweeping and cleaning. He knows i hate it if he is making noise when im sitting trying to eat. I get so fired up and angry i could fling the bowl across the kitchen but i don't. I get up and get the vacuum out and don't stop til i've vacummed the whole house.
And all the while i'm doin this i'm getting so breathless and my heart is skippin beats and i've got a low pain in my uterus from the over exertion.
After i finish i have a screaming fight with DP about it and storm off out. He thinks i'm being stupid. But i hate that he can't ever see my point of view. Why couldn't he wait 10 mins til i finished breakfast. I'm so furious at him. I cried the whole way over to my mothers house. And she is out for the day, so i'm here on my own all day. Feelin so sad and frustrated.
And most of all worried about any hurt i might have caused the baby.
Am i really stupid for arguing and screaming like that? Is it just hormones? And should i really be dragging a heavy vacuum around with such rage in me?
Oh now I'm crying again, maybe i'm not cut out for being pregnant.
So anyways back to this morning, i'm halfway through my bowl of cereal DP gets up and starts banging around in the living room sweeping and cleaning. He knows i hate it if he is making noise when im sitting trying to eat. I get so fired up and angry i could fling the bowl across the kitchen but i don't. I get up and get the vacuum out and don't stop til i've vacummed the whole house.
And all the while i'm doin this i'm getting so breathless and my heart is skippin beats and i've got a low pain in my uterus from the over exertion.
After i finish i have a screaming fight with DP about it and storm off out. He thinks i'm being stupid. But i hate that he can't ever see my point of view. Why couldn't he wait 10 mins til i finished breakfast. I'm so furious at him. I cried the whole way over to my mothers house. And she is out for the day, so i'm here on my own all day. Feelin so sad and frustrated.
And most of all worried about any hurt i might have caused the baby.
Am i really stupid for arguing and screaming like that? Is it just hormones? And should i really be dragging a heavy vacuum around with such rage in me?
Oh now I'm crying again, maybe i'm not cut out for being pregnant.