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Serenjay
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I am 8 weeks tomorrow and baba is all perfect from last 2 scans... I should be bursting with joy and so happy... but im so ill and tired and my mood has fallen through the floor.
Im struggling in work to work through the nausea and the sick rising up and I can't tell anyone there as I am on a short contract and they will use me being pregnant to not renew it and I am worried about the job.
I had to call in sick today as I was vomiting last night and this morning and I couldnt go in they are not happy and suspicious. Im hating having to lie to people and I feel so weak and nauseated I don't even want to pop out of the house after work.
Food is a nightmare...I dont fancy anything... I thought I should be blooming..bursting with happiness after 7 losses but I feel so so so tired and sick. I still can't believe I am actually pregnant.. its not sinking in even when I see the baba on the screen!! Think im too scared to get attached. My son (15) who lives at home is guessing something is up as I am so ill but I don't want to tell him...incase something happens to the pregnancy.. I have not told my middle daughter who just called in to see me before her birthday celebrations.. I was sat here weak as a kitten in my onesie with hair slapped in a bun when I should of thrown her a mini tea party and cake I am useless....
I feel so ungrateful..but im not.. im just so tired..
Im struggling in work to work through the nausea and the sick rising up and I can't tell anyone there as I am on a short contract and they will use me being pregnant to not renew it and I am worried about the job.
I had to call in sick today as I was vomiting last night and this morning and I couldnt go in they are not happy and suspicious. Im hating having to lie to people and I feel so weak and nauseated I don't even want to pop out of the house after work.
Food is a nightmare...I dont fancy anything... I thought I should be blooming..bursting with happiness after 7 losses but I feel so so so tired and sick. I still can't believe I am actually pregnant.. its not sinking in even when I see the baba on the screen!! Think im too scared to get attached. My son (15) who lives at home is guessing something is up as I am so ill but I don't want to tell him...incase something happens to the pregnancy.. I have not told my middle daughter who just called in to see me before her birthday celebrations.. I was sat here weak as a kitten in my onesie with hair slapped in a bun when I should of thrown her a mini tea party and cake I am useless....
I feel so ungrateful..but im not.. im just so tired..