rustyswife828
TTC 2nd miracle baby
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Ok.. So I have PCOS.. I miscarried at 8 weeks last year.. Was taking clomid when we conceived.. Anyway so I have 4 cousins with me being the oldest.. My oldest cousin had a kid about 4 years ago.. Now his sister which is my next oldest cousin is having a baby also.. She is currently 35 weeks now.. When I talked to her she was like oh I'm so happy I'm having a baby and it's something I've always wanted.. I just had to hold back my tears.. It's EVERYTHING that I want.. She's only 21! She married her deadbeat lazy boyfriend then got pregnant.. She doesn't deserve to have a child! Her life isn't straighten out to even take care of a baby herself. She currently lives with her mom with her husband.. She's getting laid off her job and her husband just works with his dad.. I mean we've been married for 7 years.. Got a house, got two reliable vehicles, got two high paying jobs.. We can support a child and give everything that he or she needs.. Her brother's wife is planning a baby shower for her next weekend and she invited me.. To be honest I don't want to go..It'll just be a setup of me getting upset..My grandmother is constantly asking me when we'll have a baby.. She's not close to her other grandkids.. I was her first grandbaby so I feel like I should've gave her the first great grandchild.. Am I wrong for feeling this way?