Since the scare

[Kiki1993]

Well since our pregnancy scare last month I thought when I was pregnant "Oh I have so much left to do, finish the hnd, get the house sorted, get married and we have a holiday booked and I thought when I was going through it I realised I don't want a baby yet and want to wait .. but now I know I'm not at first I was "relieved" but now I just wish I had been, I know it sounds stupid, my head tells me to wait but my heart tells me to just do it!
I know I'm going to be waiting a bit longer, no avoiding it, i want to go on holiday, i want to finish this course, i want to be back working full time, i want a baby more but I can have it all so i might as well wait and have it all rather than be impulsive and have one from my list.
Just kinda needed to let this out, having a weak day where I just want to make this baby now!

 

[butterbaby]

I think I know how you're feeling. When I had a pregnancy scare about a year ago I also was relieved yet sad that I wasn't pregnant. It definitely made me want to start trying right away but like you we had a trip planned, I was in the middle of a course, and had plans to start a new job. It seemed like forever away but surprise surprise, just like everyone says it kinda flew by. I definitely was still dreaming of being pregnant on and off throughout the year but now I am glad that I can go into TTC soon without any regrets of not finishing those goals. Anyways, it sounds like you know what's right for you, good luck!