I'm not usually prone to depression - occasional misery, yes, but never been depressed. I don't feel like I own my body anymore and what with all the aches and pains I'm getting already, it's starting to get to me. Even typing out the way I feel is making me cry. The past few nights I've had to sleep on the sofa coz it's the only place I can get the right support for my back and legs and I really miss cuddling up to my hubby I feel so helpless right now and it's just going to get worse. My hubby has to help me get dressed and undressed, he helps me on and off the toilet, (which at first felt a bit humiliating but I've had to let go of my pride now) and I can't even pick anything up off the floor if I drop something. I daren't try get in or out of the bath or shower unless he's around incase I slip and crack my head open or hurt the baby. I just feel so dependant on him and I'm usually such an independant person - it feels like everything's beyond my ability right now. And then I just feel worse when I think of all the ladies on here who are having 'real' problems - medical issues that are endangering themselves or their babies. I've had no serious medical issues at all and I just feel like I have no right to be feeling sorry for myself when there are others worse off than myself. Sorry for the whinge, I'm usually quite a cheerful girl, but I just needed to get this off my chest coz I know if I try speaking to anyone, I'll probably just start crying again and it's easier to get things out online rather than through snot and tears.