HI I am so glad I found this part of the site. I can't talk to anyone, I feel so alone lately.
I have been trying for this baby for over a yr and should feel elated just to be pregnant. But I'm so stressed, hormones, whats been going on here, I don't know.
I am really wanting a girl. But I'm sure I saw some tackle on my 20 weeks scan. I wasn't supposed to see anything but it flashed up. I'm trying not to get stressed, but ever since I feel like its a boy.
I don't know if wanting a girl is because I always wanted another girl or because my baby I lost at 21 weeks after my waters broke and that was a much wanted girl, or because I've just lost my mum and wanted to include her name somehow. I don't know if its all something, subconscious going on, or whether I just simply want another girl.
The more the pregnancy is going on the more I want it to be a girl, but when people ask what I want I just say a live baby this time, I could never admit to this. I am praying that you all could help me as I'm quite emotional about all of this. Partly guilt, partly just everything going on is making me emotional and partly I just want a baby girl, I don't think I'm trying to replace the baby I lost, but maybe I am and I don't even know I am, maybe I'm in denial. It feels like I have wanted a girl for so long, then I have one but she dies, now I so want it again, but I'm sure I saw something that day. I asked the sonographer and she said I couldn't possibly say if I saw something, but if I did she must have.
Gosh I feel better even just getting it out on here. I am such a screwed up lady right now. Any advice at all would be so unbelievably wonderful
I have been trying for this baby for over a yr and should feel elated just to be pregnant. But I'm so stressed, hormones, whats been going on here, I don't know.
I am really wanting a girl. But I'm sure I saw some tackle on my 20 weeks scan. I wasn't supposed to see anything but it flashed up. I'm trying not to get stressed, but ever since I feel like its a boy.
I don't know if wanting a girl is because I always wanted another girl or because my baby I lost at 21 weeks after my waters broke and that was a much wanted girl, or because I've just lost my mum and wanted to include her name somehow. I don't know if its all something, subconscious going on, or whether I just simply want another girl.
The more the pregnancy is going on the more I want it to be a girl, but when people ask what I want I just say a live baby this time, I could never admit to this. I am praying that you all could help me as I'm quite emotional about all of this. Partly guilt, partly just everything going on is making me emotional and partly I just want a baby girl, I don't think I'm trying to replace the baby I lost, but maybe I am and I don't even know I am, maybe I'm in denial. It feels like I have wanted a girl for so long, then I have one but she dies, now I so want it again, but I'm sure I saw something that day. I asked the sonographer and she said I couldn't possibly say if I saw something, but if I did she must have.
Gosh I feel better even just getting it out on here. I am such a screwed up lady right now. Any advice at all would be so unbelievably wonderful