So Down Right Now

[leopardprint]

Although we've been trying our hardest to get a BFP this month, I really doubt we'll get it by the 24th (when I'm testing).

Its all because of how stressed and down I've been these past few months.

I finally thought I was feeling more positive about things this past week and felt like all that mattered was me, my OH and starting a family, but now I just feel down again.

Last night when my OH was out someone rang me and threatend me, I was really upset but felt silly for being upset because it was just a phonecall, I rang the police because I felt frightend and was all on my own.

Since we moved here I've been getting hassle from the locals and bitchy girls I've met, I've only lived here since November 2009.

I love my house here and have a lot to be thankfull for, I have a lovely other half, I have all my doggies to keep me company and we are finacially very stable. I just feel very alone here and bored, people keep on calling me fat and boring, I'm just really down.

I don't even know how to help myself, my mum keeps on trying to persuade me to move back to hers for a year but I really don't want to be parted from my OH and go back to living at mum's.

Sorry about me going on, I'm sure there's people in far worse situations, I just feel that we wont have concieved this month with the way I feel right now.

 

[SAJ]

aww cheer up my dear! Everyone has down days, and for some people it takes a lot of collective negative things to bring them down. Sounds like that is what's going on...although maybe I'm just assuming. Don't pay any attention to the people who bring you down. Those who are negative towards you are only insecure with themselves and they compare themselves to others; when they see a quality in someone else that they, themselves, wish they had they turn to being nasty to deal with it. Best thing to do is surround yourself with great people, and forget about the not-so-great people. Relax, and try not to stress...as we all know stress is not our friend when TTC. I hope you start feeling better soon!

 

[leopardprint]

aww cheer up my dear! Everyone has down days, and for some people it takes a lot of collective negative things to bring them down. Sounds like that is what's going on...although maybe I'm just assuming. Don't pay any attention to the people who bring you down. Those who are negative towards you are only insecure with themselves and they compare themselves to others; when they see a quality in someone else that they, themselves, wish they had they turn to being nasty to deal with it. Best thing to do is surround yourself with great people, and forget about the not-so-great people. Relax, and try not to stress...as we all know stress is not our friend when TTC. I hope you start feeling better soon!

Thanks SAJ, I'll try to cheer up. I really hope I get a BFP this month so I can look forward instead of thinking of the way the present is here.

I had a major craving for chips (even though I'm on a diet) so my OH took me to get some when he got in earlier, I feel a bit happier now, only had 10 chips so I havn't really ruined my diet completely.

I'll try and stay positive