In may I lost my angel at 12weeks. We have been trying since and I'm feeling rele positive most days. But there's always something in my head scaring me that when I do become pregnant again I will lose my angel again I know there are woman on here who have lost upto 5 or more angels and my heart feels for them,but I just don't think I would cope with another one,i would hit rock bottom and never get back up. This year has been the hardest of my life and I don't want next year to be the same I cudnt cope with all that heartache and endless tears and then the stress of tryin all over Again I used to think with me just bein in my early 20's I would get pregnant fast and have a healthy baby.....I guess not sorry for the random rant ladies, I just don't know what to do with myself so I will stop thinking this!!