Somebody help me, I'm going mad!!!!!!

[gemgem77]

Hi Ladies,

I need to vent!! I swore I wouldn't symptom spot this month but I am finding it sooooo difficult not to! As much as I tell myself I am cool with however long it takes I have been testing everyday and every BFN makes me feel so sad, I find myself trying to find a line
I'm only 9dpo though and this is only the 3rd cycle of ttc so I know I need to get a grip, I just wondered if anyone else is feeling the same, like this is consuming your life?
Thanks

 

[CelticStar]

I know exactly how you feel, I'm only onto my second cycle of ttc and I've actually given my bank card to OH so I can't buy any tests until AF is due or later!
Last month I used six Clear Blue tests even though the first one was a BFN

I never thought that I'd be this obsessed so quickly with it but now all I can think about is having the family that we both want and writing down everything that happens during my cycles...

If you want, we can go mad together LOL!

 

[gemgem77]

Oh yes please!!! It's difficult because there isn't anyone I can talk to about it because I'm trying to make out I'm not stressing about it lol
I tested with a frer this morning and got a BFN what an absolute waste of money!!
I think I feel worried as well because I just turned 34 and keep thinking what if I can't have a baby

 

[gemgem77]

Are you using OPK's or temping?

 

[AmyLouise89]

I'm 9dpo too. At 6dpo I had a little light brown when I wiped. Now my only symptoms are bad headaches & soooo sleepy constantly. I'd be testing like crazy too if it wasn't for my husband keeping the money & I don't drive lol this is my first cycle since 2nd loss in April.

 

[gemgem77]

I'm so sorry for your loss
It's hard isn't it, and your right it is expensive. I have been testing since 7dpo with ic but using the frer this morning was stupid as they are expensive!

 

[AmyLouise89]

Thanks! I'm supposed to wait 6-12 months to try again & it's only been 6 but I'm soooo impatient & want a baby so bad. I lost my first daughter on May 29th, 2010 at 19 weeks 5 days & lost my second daughter on April 11th, 2011 at 20 weeks 5 days. I have an incompetent cervix. I'm super scared but anxious at the same time. I hope we both get our BFP's soon!

 

[WishfulX1]

Hi ladies, here I was thinking I was the only mad one!! I'm baby mad, everywhere I look there seems to be pregnant ppl or new babies! I tested this morning (8dpo) and obviously got a bfn but found myself taking the test apart determined to find a line! I promised myself I wouldn't test until AF was due as I would soon know one way or the other but I gave in this morning and no doubt will test everyday until either a bfp or af arrives!

This is only our 3rd cycle too and we used the cbfm this montb which has been amazing! Showed I ovulated cd16/17 when I thought it was cd12/13 so if it wasn't for the machine we might not have even BD'd!

Fxd for us all this month!! X

 

[CelticStar]

Oh yes please!!! It's difficult because there isn't anyone I can talk to about it because I'm trying to make out I'm not stressing about it lol
I tested with a frer this morning and got a BFN what an absolute waste of money!!
I think I feel worried as well because I just turned 34 and keep thinking what if I can't have a baby

Well, you're nine days ahead of me but I'd be happy to go mad with you

I've got one CB test left from last cycle but am determined to hide it somewhere and forget about it lol (trust me...My memory is really that bad!!) I want to be relaxed about it all and just let it happen but I'm finding that impossible, all I can talk about with my OH is what point I'm at with ovulating, what I'd like during a pregnancy and how I'd like us to be after the baby is born.....I'm opting for the natural parenting way with reusable nappies, baby wearing and breast feeding....Have you been obsessing about those options as well? Please say yes, I need to know I'm not the only one lol!

I'm 29 now and always said that I wanted to be pregnant at least, before turning 30....I now have six months left for that to happen

I'm not using OPK or temping but I do write down everything and thankfully have always had very regular periods and enough ovulation pain to let me know exactly when I'm ovulating!
I'll try this way for at least another cycle then if I haven't had any luck I'll be using OPK.
How about you?

AmyLouise, I'm so sorry for your loss, FX'd that you don't have to wait too long before getting pregnant again and going full term x

 

[WishfulX1]

Amy, I'm so sorry for your losses!! **hugs** x x

 

[gemgem77]

AmyLouise89 Oh that is awful, I can't even imagine what you've been through I think it's great that you are trying again now.

WishfulX1 Hi No you are most definitely not the only one!!! How funny I took apart my first test this morning at 9dpo, I don't know what I was thinking

CelticStar I am using OPK's and temping for the first time this cycel and the OPK's have been brill, I was that excited when I got my smiley face on cd 14 it was as if I'd got my bfp!!!
OH can only take so much baby talk and so try to keep it to a minimum, he goes through phases lol

FX'd for all of us to get our BFP's soon

 

[CelticStar]

Which OPK's are you using?

I'm lucky with my OH, it was him that suggested we started ttc and he gets more excited than me at times lol!

Let's hope this is a lucky thread and we all get our BFP's!

 

[mommysbaby]

hay gals, i am also in the same boat. now i am pretty ok but last month i couldn't resist testing. so i got these dollar shop test kits. the good thing abt them is they hardly show ANY results. so if it's -ve u can say that's wrong and relax n if it's +ve u can use a pharmacy brand.. good solution, right? otherwise already u r low to c the single line & on top of it u feel guilty also for wasting money like that.... so try this....

 

[gemgem77]

Which OPK's are you using?

I'm lucky with my OH, it was him that suggested we started ttc and he gets more excited than me at times lol!

Let's hope this is a lucky thread and we all get our BFP's!

I'm using clear blue digi's, and the ic one steps. I started early with the ic's and then as the line got darker started using the cb's. I highly recommend them though on the same day I got my smiley face I couldn't tell if my ic was pos or not!
Hi mommysbaby,
I completely agree with your logic, I could not physically fight the urge this morning to use a frer how stupid is that!!! I won't use another now untill/if af doesn't come.
I really hope this is a lucky bfp thread for all of us