Spontaneously unprotected, not sure what result I want...

[justmeinlove]

I'd pretty 100% settled on no more. Life is becoming happy again, we will be able to start our hobby again next year, I have a career plan, our relationship is getting back on track the older she gets. I mean it wasn't off track, but most difficult arrival and baby plus epic and ongoing sleep deprivation have been Hard :-\

Anyway we had a morning alone on Friday (48 hours ago now) and despite knowing I was about 48 hours from probable ovulation, we got a bit...spontaneous.

I am mostly terrified and Want to make sure no baby results. I don't want my life blowing apart for Another two years
And yet, I still haven't been to get the morning after pill. Why? Why? I think because a bit of me Hopes. Wants to give my awesome child a sibling who I pray would be her best friend. And that maybe this time it wouldn't be utter hell.

I don't know what to think Or do. And I know I'm Really close to the pill limit - enough that I think it might be a bit late :-\

I just...don't want to go back to where my life was

 

[callmedan]

sorry you are feeling like this

i think that you didnt get the morning after pill might mean you kind of do want a sibling for your LO?
i dont really know what to say, can you talk to your partner about this and see what he thinks?

 

[Mrs P5515]

Didn't want to read and run

Sounds like a really difficult situation, like callmedan has said is talking to your OH possible?

 

[justmeinlove]

He thinks the same both a bit traumatised by first time round

 

[mummy2_1]

Has time lapsed now.to take the pill?? If so how would u feel in two weeks taking a test and.it.coming back negative?? U might need to wait the two weeks to know ur true feelings. If it was negative u might feel a sense of relief or a feeling of let down. Either way u will.know how u feel about having another child. If it is positive how would.u both want to plan the future. Good luck

 

[justmeinlove]

Thanks chaps

 

[Nerdy]

That's tough. I know the feeling in a way because my son is nearly 2 years old and life was kind of finding its own stride again with routines and stuff... But... Fate decided we needed another baby right now and while at first I was admittedly a little leery, I'm honestly very happy. Children are miracles. They are. Every pregnancy and every child is totally different. You may get lucky.