Did someone say support? I need an army. So here is my story....I had a MC in October 2012, I was about 5 wks.....completely crushed me we had been trying since August 2011. After finally getting something that I had been trying for so long to get, only for it to be taken from me just didn't seem fair. I was hoping a praying that I would bring myself back up after the MC, but I was very wrong. I am depressed, stressed, and worst of all insanely jealous of most of my friends as many of them have announced pregnancies or have children of their own. I took the month of November off after the MC and seriously thought that I would e pregnant soon after.....no such luck. It is June 2013 and still no baby. My husband and I have gone through many things to make our chances of conceiving a baby greater, they are:
I was on Clomid before a scheduled IUI, and learned through a transvaginal ultra sound that I had too many follicles and that Clomid overstimulated my ovaries IUI Cancelled.
We have also learned that my husband has a low sperm count due to a vericole I had a IUI in May without any fertility drugs and AF arrived right on time in June.
My doctor has decided that my husband should try clomid to see if that increases his counts this month...so that is where we are at. July we are scheduled for another IUI.
What do you do to help cope with this process? I am surrounded by my friends who are all pregnant and all I hear are....stay positive you will get pregnant....have faith. I hate feeling this way. Everytime someone says they are pregnant I put on a huge front...and a DAMN good one I might say, only to come home and spend the entire night awake and crying. Last night I just had a co-worker announce she was pregnant and what is worse, is she is with me every second of every day when we work. I am very happy for her but sooooooooooo jealous and defeated at the same time. She just started trying...uhg. Now I will be reminded everyday of something that I am working so hard for that I can't seem to get as her belly grows everyday. How do you cope with this? I pray every night, we do all the things we need to, we have sex at just the right times and we can't seem to overcome this battle. Everybody says for me to try the pencil test and I will know if I will have a child, but I am scared to....I don't want to be crushed and give up hope. I like to still have some faith/hope that I will be pregnant again.
Any helpful coping methods would be greatly appreciated!