AnnabelsMummy
Mummy to princess annabel
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As you probably guessed this post is gonna be a big fat winge.. but at least i'll get it off my chest...
Basicallyyy, i'm really scared and terrified at the moment, especially with being new to all this, and having to grow up myself really quickly..
hardly anyone knows, mainly due to being scared of how everyone is going to react..
I hate college at the moment (i'm only 17), and some lady (who's 36, if that has any relivance) has made it her job to make my life at college hell, she thinks because i'm late (mainly due to MS, and not being able to get out of the toilet till about 10) and i've missed like 3 days (scans and doctors appointments) that i should be thrown off the course, and i'm wasting time.. even though i don't see how it's any of her business, and i'm completely up-to-date, however she keeps complaining that i shouldn't get a chance because i have "problems".. i also suffer with depression, and it makes it a million times harder.. but today she kept saying "i'm going to develop problems so that i can be late all the time).. and she has no idea what's going on... i don't understand whether it's me or she's completely insensitive :/ ... stupid woman, and she was like the biggest problems you probably have are doing your hair everyday and waking up.. which really annoyed me.. :/
i also feel really alone and have nobody to talk to other than my OH, and he seems to be living in fairyland and i'm a really planning kind of person, i like to have a plan, so i can see a way through things, but his plans are always unrealistic (eg. winning the lottery and buying a million pound house.. hmm!), although it's good to see him dream i guess..
i really want to tell my mum, because i think she'd be the best person to talk to, but i know she'd be sooo let down, and i don't think i could deal with that right now, plus, i don't really want to tell her till after my 12 week scan as i'm really scared somehting might go wrong!!
On a better note, i have my second dating scan tomorrow, so am hoping to see my bubby's heartbeat again!!
Sorry about that, probably posted it in completely the wrong place too!! Buttt i'm glad it's off my chest!!
xxxxxx
Basicallyyy, i'm really scared and terrified at the moment, especially with being new to all this, and having to grow up myself really quickly..
hardly anyone knows, mainly due to being scared of how everyone is going to react..
I hate college at the moment (i'm only 17), and some lady (who's 36, if that has any relivance) has made it her job to make my life at college hell, she thinks because i'm late (mainly due to MS, and not being able to get out of the toilet till about 10) and i've missed like 3 days (scans and doctors appointments) that i should be thrown off the course, and i'm wasting time.. even though i don't see how it's any of her business, and i'm completely up-to-date, however she keeps complaining that i shouldn't get a chance because i have "problems".. i also suffer with depression, and it makes it a million times harder.. but today she kept saying "i'm going to develop problems so that i can be late all the time).. and she has no idea what's going on... i don't understand whether it's me or she's completely insensitive :/ ... stupid woman, and she was like the biggest problems you probably have are doing your hair everyday and waking up.. which really annoyed me.. :/
i also feel really alone and have nobody to talk to other than my OH, and he seems to be living in fairyland and i'm a really planning kind of person, i like to have a plan, so i can see a way through things, but his plans are always unrealistic (eg. winning the lottery and buying a million pound house.. hmm!), although it's good to see him dream i guess..
i really want to tell my mum, because i think she'd be the best person to talk to, but i know she'd be sooo let down, and i don't think i could deal with that right now, plus, i don't really want to tell her till after my 12 week scan as i'm really scared somehting might go wrong!!
On a better note, i have my second dating scan tomorrow, so am hoping to see my bubby's heartbeat again!!
Sorry about that, probably posted it in completely the wrong place too!! Buttt i'm glad it's off my chest!!
xxxxxx