Bleurgh. Ever have one of those days? Got the glums and I don't like it. Hormones are everywhere. My mum was diagnosed with breast cancer in the same week we found out about the baby. It has now spread to her oesophagus (wind pipe) and her lymph nodes...since the 12th jan. So its pretty aggressive. She is having chemo and radiotherapy. I want to scream. Its so unfair. I never thought I would be able to have a baby (doctors had told me the same) so our little monkey is a complete blessing - and then my mum gets cancer. Why? I just don't understand? To top it all, I am pushing my OH away because I don't quite know how to tell him I am scared my mum is going to die. Yet I can type it on a forum to complete strangers who don't know me....how f*cked up am I?! lol (excuse the language...its a bad day!) Struggling to make sense of things today.