So I found out my first baby is going to be a boy 2 weeks ago, and I still cant get too excited about it.. I am pretending to family and friends I cant wait .. But I feel so detached from my pregnancy.. I longed to get pregnant and we tried for 18 months for this baby and I know i should be happy with a boy. I work in a nursery and today a group of boys were being challenging and hurting others.. I looked at a colleague (who has 3 boys) and said why would i want one of those.. :s and then felt terrible as she laughed (thinking i was joking) Will I always feel like this?? or when baby is placed in my arms will i forget i ever felt like this??