floatingbaby
Mum of 1 and Preggo!
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My LO is 6 days old - a little dreamboat - I'm super in love with her, but I had a really traumatic birth and I can't seem to shake the sadness I feel.
I know my hormones are crazy out of whack right now, and I am running on no sleep which is so exhausting, but when I think about her birth, or talk about it, or anything about birth really I just get super sad as I remember the pain
The silly thing is that I had such a great/healthy labour and delivery. I handled the labour really well. Breathing through contractions. I went to the hospital at 930pm and was 5cm. Then I think around 1130pm I got to transition and everything changed. I puked and puked and my waters broke then I just didn't get a break from the pain. I took laughing gas but no other pain relief and I was beyond shocked at my inability to deal with it. Things moved very quickly and my baby was born just before 1am. My feelings are that I was so surprised at myself and what I was like during labour - I never knew I had that person inside me. I didn't know I was like that.
Just crying as I write...
I know it is over now and I have my dear girl, but I am still traumatized by delivering her. My doc and I have discussed my feelings and I'm seeing her again tomorrow... I just want to know that I will heal, mentally, from all this. I think getting more than 2.75hrs sleep in the night will help BIG TIME too
thx ladies
I know my hormones are crazy out of whack right now, and I am running on no sleep which is so exhausting, but when I think about her birth, or talk about it, or anything about birth really I just get super sad as I remember the pain
The silly thing is that I had such a great/healthy labour and delivery. I handled the labour really well. Breathing through contractions. I went to the hospital at 930pm and was 5cm. Then I think around 1130pm I got to transition and everything changed. I puked and puked and my waters broke then I just didn't get a break from the pain. I took laughing gas but no other pain relief and I was beyond shocked at my inability to deal with it. Things moved very quickly and my baby was born just before 1am. My feelings are that I was so surprised at myself and what I was like during labour - I never knew I had that person inside me. I didn't know I was like that.
Just crying as I write...
I know it is over now and I have my dear girl, but I am still traumatized by delivering her. My doc and I have discussed my feelings and I'm seeing her again tomorrow... I just want to know that I will heal, mentally, from all this. I think getting more than 2.75hrs sleep in the night will help BIG TIME too
thx ladies