supposed to be due date friday :(

[twilightgeek]

and i'm still not right in the head :/ i want to try again but have uni and i just cant weigh up in my mind what to do :/ i think i'm just broken

 

[MeNMyZach]

and i'm still not right in the head :/ i want to try again but have uni and i just cant weigh up in my mind what to do :/ i think i'm just broken

It takes time to heal. I'm a few days away from a year since I had my m/c, and I feel all weepy and sad today. Firsts are going to be hard. First time you pass your due date; baby's "would've been" first Christmas (other holidays), etc.

You're not broken; you're depressed. Do you have a good support system? Sometimes it helps to talk to a counselor... sometimes not. Just remember that you and how you're feeling is normal and you are in no way broken.

 

[Topanga053]

I agree- you're not broken. The depression after a trauma like this is horrific and anniversarys make it worse. My due date was back in March. I was a mess in the days leading up to it (DH and I had a HUGE fight where I even got out of the car and was going to walk home) because he didn't remember when the due date was and said that I was the only one who thought about it anymore. I was out of my mind with anger/grief at that comment.

Surprisingly, the day of was not as bad as I expected and, afterwards, it felt like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders. I wish the same peace and healing for you tomorrow and in the days following.

 

[nessaw]

Hi Hun am so sorry for ur loss. I was due tomorrow as well. I wish I had some words to help but I guess we just have to
Get thro it the bet we can. We have got a Chinese lantern to light and let go Tom night. Big hugs.xx

 

[yogimamma]

Before I experienced the miscarriage,I always felt for women who had experienced a miscarriage,though only when I experienced it myself did I under stand the full trauma of it,one of the worse things I have ever been through in my life ((HUGS))).My thoughts are with you x

 

[twilightgeek]

:/

 

[Dollface94]

So sorry for your loss!

Last friday, the 7th was the date that marked a year from the day I found out my baby had died. I had my 12 week scan on that day a year ago, and I just cried the whole day. My due date was christmas day, and I still don't feel right in the head. It definitely mucks you up to a degree! Part of me won't ever be the same until I have my first baby in my arms big hugs x

 

[tinyfootsteps]

My due date is coming up next month and I am dreading it. I was really hoping to be pregnant again by then but it just hasn't worked out that way so as from my next cycle I'm going to NTNP as TTC is just too much for me and a BFN every month is killing me.

Need to just take a step back and re-assess things.

 

[Izzie74]

So sorry for your loss. I was due on October 1st and am already planning to ask for the day off work and go somewhere peaceful to think and pray. Hope my OH remembers, but we will do something special on his birthday too.

Love the Chinese lantern idea nessaw. Where do you get them from?

 

[nessaw]

I got it from a butterfly farm near me but have seen them in tescos etc. in the end the anticipation of the day was worse than the day itself. I had the day off as I was owed one and went for a swim and a pedicure to indulge myself. The lantern looked great but unfortunately didn't get too far. I think it was a bit too windy! We has a glass of fizz after. Had a few tears but not as many as I thought.

Like tiny says the stress every month is too much and I think the fact tha t we can't try til sept due to me having had the mmr jab helped my mental state. I think that made a huge difference.

Good luck and big hugs everyone.xx

 

[twilightgeek]

time doesnt heal. i feel totally broken and its taking all my effort to just be alive and do the day to day shabang :/ just feel dead inside