I just want to hear that I'm not alone/a bad mom. Nobody in my family understands. We never had children who couldn't latch. Children with autism. children with speech delays. I know I was cheated out of an experience, as my mom put its. My ex was an abusive pos. But I never thought I would be cheated of motherhood. I had an anterior placenta. An abusive partner throughout pregnancy and birth and beyond. My son has been issue after issue (granted non-live threatening). I feel guilty. Why me? Why us?