Thoughts for the Child I Lost

[JASMAK]

By Sharon Gates

There might come a day sometime in the future
When I don't think about you constantly,
Wonder what you would have looked like,
What colour your hair would have been,
And how your smile might have looked.
There might come a day sometime in the future
When I won't wonder what I did wrong.
When I won't blame myself.
When the sharp blade of pain will become dull.
When I can accept this as meant to be.
There might come a day sometime in the future
When I carry another child
And though I will love him beyond measure
And though I will hold him a little tighter,
And though he will be my child,
He won't be you.
There might come a day sometime in the future
When I am happy again.
When I can let go.
When I can look at a baby without aching for you.
But it won't be today.

 

[Chilli]

That's exactly how I feel! I want to tell everyone to stop telling me that it was for the best because the best would've been to hold him and watch him grow!!! That's why he's irreplaceable and other peoples comments hurt so much!