kneeswrites
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Okay so... a few months ago I started talking to a friend of my mom's who I am facebook friends with about me potentially becoming a surrogate for her. She's had multiple early losses and a late second tri loss. I've always felt so bad and guilty for being able to get pregnant and for having a healthy baby and never having dealt with losses. I know that's stupid but I feel completely unworthy and yet she is a wonderful person and I don't understand why she can't have a child when she would be the best mother in the world.
Well, she was excited about surrogacy but for financial and health reasons she and her husband decided it wasn't the right time, and I told her if she ever decided to pursue it I was totally committed as I didn't plan on having another kid for a few years. So that's where we left the conversation.
Now I'm unexpectedly pregnant and I have no idea how to approach her. I don't want to come off as pitying or condescending. I desperately want to find a way to apologize for getting pregnant but I don't want to say we accidentally got pregnant because that I feel would be a slap in the face to someone trying so desperately for so long. But I can't say it was planned because I had promised to be her surrogate if she decided it was possible for them.
I'm still happy to be a surrogate for her. I would LOVE to do it actually. I'm sure the timing of the pregnancy won't be too big of a deal because they would need time to get the money and her health together for it. My thing is I don't know how to talk to her. Or if I should even say anything.
It's not that we're super close or anything, but I really like her and respect her and I want to do the right thing. I want to let her know I didn't just say "F surrogacy I want my own baby" and get knocked up, and I want her to know I am thinking about her feelings and not being totally oblivious to what she might feel about me getting pregnant.
Idk it's so complicated and I feel soooo bad and I'm also really really terrible at social interaction/social norms. I don't know how to interact with people normally at all much less a complicated situation like this.
I just want to not be a jerk basically. Any advice?
Edit: Want to add we already announced it. My mom said I shouldn't say anything and that her friend would understand and not be envious/mad/sad about it, but I thought about it and I realized that my mom has never even been pregnant or wanted to be pregnant (I'm adopted) and she couldn't possibly understand what my friend would feel.
Edit 2: Just realized this didn't need to be in first tri, could've been in pregnancy club. whoops. so used to first tri >.<
Well, she was excited about surrogacy but for financial and health reasons she and her husband decided it wasn't the right time, and I told her if she ever decided to pursue it I was totally committed as I didn't plan on having another kid for a few years. So that's where we left the conversation.
Now I'm unexpectedly pregnant and I have no idea how to approach her. I don't want to come off as pitying or condescending. I desperately want to find a way to apologize for getting pregnant but I don't want to say we accidentally got pregnant because that I feel would be a slap in the face to someone trying so desperately for so long. But I can't say it was planned because I had promised to be her surrogate if she decided it was possible for them.
I'm still happy to be a surrogate for her. I would LOVE to do it actually. I'm sure the timing of the pregnancy won't be too big of a deal because they would need time to get the money and her health together for it. My thing is I don't know how to talk to her. Or if I should even say anything.
It's not that we're super close or anything, but I really like her and respect her and I want to do the right thing. I want to let her know I didn't just say "F surrogacy I want my own baby" and get knocked up, and I want her to know I am thinking about her feelings and not being totally oblivious to what she might feel about me getting pregnant.
Idk it's so complicated and I feel soooo bad and I'm also really really terrible at social interaction/social norms. I don't know how to interact with people normally at all much less a complicated situation like this.
I just want to not be a jerk basically. Any advice?
Edit: Want to add we already announced it. My mom said I shouldn't say anything and that her friend would understand and not be envious/mad/sad about it, but I thought about it and I realized that my mom has never even been pregnant or wanted to be pregnant (I'm adopted) and she couldn't possibly understand what my friend would feel.
Edit 2: Just realized this didn't need to be in first tri, could've been in pregnancy club. whoops. so used to first tri >.<