today I... add yours..

[sp92]

Today I managed to shower with fainting. I was desperate for a shower when I got home from hospital yesterday, but I couldn't manage it because of the blood loss. I showered today, got dressed and brushed my hair but now I just feel so weak and exhausted that I've had to lie down again. I just want things to go back to normal.

 

[horseypants]

i'm at work today, for the first time in about three weeks. my coworkers say i look good.

 

[Babee_Bugs]

Today, I don't know why, but I just feel like I can't keep doing this anymore as with regards to trying for a baby... For years I've had nothing but disappointment!.. Other woman just fall pregnant when they don't even want they baby! Arghhhhh I feel sooo angry and annoyed... I feel a failure and just a utter sense of what's the point?

My sons are coming upto 8 and 5 years of age.. Do I really want to be starting all over again?... Sleepless nights, teething, safe guarding everything in the house, buying a bigger car, maybes dealing with post natal depression again, having another c-section, being a high risk pregnancy.... Then worrying to hell every week wondering if I have another blighted ovum, or if something is wrong.

My head is wanting to call it quits, but my heart is saying different

 

[horseypants]

sp92, everyone and babee_bugs,

it SUCKS being at work today. suddenly im all paranoid about my uterus and think i can feel it. https://babyandbump.momtastic.com/m...c-awareness-my-uterus-making-me-paranoid.html ......im totally freaking myself out. .....but at least i look good supposedly? : ) I didnt wash my hair today and instead, i did an updo plus a hairband, put a ton of colorful jewelry on (usually not my thing) and wore a dress. the people like it.

 

[sw20]

Think I did too much too soon. I miscarried last weekend and dived straight back into life, had a job interview on the day I got discharge from hospital, been to friends and families houses with the weather being nice & dont feel like I have had time to grieve. My OH seems to have just taken it in his stride and today (a day of doin nothing) I've just fallen to pieces. I don't know what to do with myself. X

 

[sp92]

Think I did too much too soon. I miscarried last weekend and dived straight back into life, had a job interview on the day I got discharge from hospital, been to friends and families houses with the weather being nice & dont feel like I have had time to grieve. My OH seems to have just taken it in his stride and today (a day of doin nothing) I've just fallen to pieces. I don't know what to do with myself. X

I know how you feel, I'm worried that I'm already doing the same. I miscarried yesterday and only got out of hospital yday afternoon. I've already scheduled a job interview for Thursday, booked a holiday for September, looking at flats to move into next month.. I feel like I'm trying to compensate for my loss by keep myself overly busy. As soon as I stop planning things and I realise that I'm not pregnant, I break down. And then I get back to planning my life for the next few months. Just worried I'm forgetting to grieve. I hate showing my emotions around people, so I've been holding back the tears and telling everyone that I'm fine.

I hope things get better for you honey. xx

 

[pitty8]

Today I realized that I will never be happy in this marriage. Instead of focusing on fixing it, I just want out.

I feel the same way! No one seems to understand me when I say that, but I am right there with you girl!

 

[buttonhole]

going to do some house work today, and hang the washing out,
thrilling eh

 

[Babee_Bugs]

Well today I'm gonna sit on my ass, watch tv and do BOT ALL

 

[sp92]

Today has been a good day for me! I got dressed and did my hair and make-up which I really didn't feel like doing. I met up with a friend and went to the cinema, which really helped to take my mind off things. Everything felt normal again for those few hours, and then I got home and I realised what happened all over again. I want to stop bleeding, it's just a constant reminder and I hate it.

 

[Koukla]

Today I washed my hair and shaved my legs, actually got dressed before noon, did a little gardening, played with DS in the dirt, did laundry, cleaned the counters, and did some job searching. I could have gotten much more done, but that's actually the most I've done in a couple days because I simply can't seem to make myself care. if it wasn't for DS I doubt I'd be getting out of bed.

 

[buttonhole]

today is quiet day for me, my 12 year old if off school he is feeling unwell.
just looked at my bank account and its not good lol

but, I am going out later for a coffee with family

 

[Babee_Bugs]

Today I - me and OH spoke lastnight (I know technically not today lol) but he has convinced me to give sperm meets egg plan a go, when my new cycle decides to turn up..

We have never tried this before, we use to just then hope and pray it works. But I've read really good things regarding successful rate after a MC.

Just waiting for AF to arrive so we can actually start this x

 

[sp92]

Today I have a job interview! xx

 

[horseypants]

again a little cheating, but tomorrow is my bday!!!!!!!!! i have come to terms with the fact that out of the blue, the slightest thing will make me burst into tears, possible even two years from now. however, i am ready to turn the page.

yesterday, i saw the doc for post d&c appointment and i wore a pendant that reminds me of my two lost little ones. i rocked the pendant, managed to feel sexy in a room full of pregos and i loved my doc, who ive just met for the first time. it got me feeling optimistic and decreased my anxiety in a big way.

today, after work, i'm going to go to the gym.

 

[Babee_Bugs]

Today I visited the doctor, after 5 weeks I'm still getting positives!

I feel like I'm getting pregnancy symptoms back ... When will this nightmare end, I've been given tablets incase I have an infection from the d&c procedure

 

[wamommy]

Today I got into a serious car accident on the freeway with my 2 daughters in the back seat. They are fine (just shaken up a bit) but it made me realize that I really need to snap out of it and be there for my girls. I have been moping around snapping at them for weeks, and they deserve to have me back. I could lose THEM in an instant, and I feel like a real jerk for taking a lot of my sadness and shame out on two innocent angels

 

[horseypants]

wamommy, thank god you're all ok xo

babeebugs, hang in there, it'll be ok but i know it does really feel like it's taking too long and it's agonizing : (

 

[buttonhole]

wamommy, how frightening! I am glad you and your girls are ok

today I went shopping with my bro, he bought me a Gooseberry bush for my garden

after 10 weeks of bleeding and 4 of no bleeding ....I am wondering when my period will appear......I felt really sick in a restaurant the other day, from the smell of a pasto/pepper/pasta dish.....now I wonder whooppps are we going to have a surprise... time will tell....too early to fall after my miscarriage in March
I am sure my body wont be ready...but lets see

 

[Melanieanne77]

Happy birthday Horsey Pants!