pansorie
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I am more than sure this is a very common topic in the forums, but I do have to vent. I am 6w2d pregnant, I do not see my doctor until November 10. I feel like I did a great disservice to myself finding out that I was pregnant so early.
Since finding out I have hardly had a chance to enjoy the idea that I am pregnant. I am 35 years old, this is my second pregnancy (my husband's first), my son is 15 years old. Because there is so much time difference between my first pregnancy and this I feel like it is my first all over again.
I have read everything on miscarriages, to when the babies stop growing. Both my mother in law and sister in law gave birth to stillborns at the time they were supposed to deliver healthy babies. These kind of things weigh heavily on me.
My symptoms have been few and far between. My breasts are sore, but not THAT sore, and I had moderate cramps here and there, nothing more than PMS. I don't have morning sickness, but I have been having the worst time with gagging and dry heaving... is this a pregnancy symptom?! I have cried... a lot. Over odd things, too, like a song or reading an article on cancer.
I feel like I am relatively intelligent, but I find myself questioning everything. The wait to see my doctor has been near excruciating. I am terrified that we will go in and not see an egg sac, or not hear a heart beat.
Everyone tells me to calm down and relax. I have been better this last day or so, but I still feel like a nutcase. I am still taking pregnancy tests! I have taken well over 20 tests since finding out. This is how bad I have been: I had labs drawn when I was 4w5d and 5w1d. It came back that my progesterone was greater than 60, and my HcG had more than doubled. This calmed me for about an hour. And then I started thinking... well, what are my levels NOW? Have they dropped?
Am I crazy? Am I being especially out of control in my feelings? I just really need to go to the doctor for some reassurance. I feel so alone.
Since finding out I have hardly had a chance to enjoy the idea that I am pregnant. I am 35 years old, this is my second pregnancy (my husband's first), my son is 15 years old. Because there is so much time difference between my first pregnancy and this I feel like it is my first all over again.
I have read everything on miscarriages, to when the babies stop growing. Both my mother in law and sister in law gave birth to stillborns at the time they were supposed to deliver healthy babies. These kind of things weigh heavily on me.
My symptoms have been few and far between. My breasts are sore, but not THAT sore, and I had moderate cramps here and there, nothing more than PMS. I don't have morning sickness, but I have been having the worst time with gagging and dry heaving... is this a pregnancy symptom?! I have cried... a lot. Over odd things, too, like a song or reading an article on cancer.
I feel like I am relatively intelligent, but I find myself questioning everything. The wait to see my doctor has been near excruciating. I am terrified that we will go in and not see an egg sac, or not hear a heart beat.
Everyone tells me to calm down and relax. I have been better this last day or so, but I still feel like a nutcase. I am still taking pregnancy tests! I have taken well over 20 tests since finding out. This is how bad I have been: I had labs drawn when I was 4w5d and 5w1d. It came back that my progesterone was greater than 60, and my HcG had more than doubled. This calmed me for about an hour. And then I started thinking... well, what are my levels NOW? Have they dropped?
Am I crazy? Am I being especially out of control in my feelings? I just really need to go to the doctor for some reassurance. I feel so alone.