When I started out this month I told myself that I would surely just trust that if God wanted me pg this month it would happen. So I said my prayers of faith, and relaxed...
BUT NOW I'm having feelings of dread, and preparing myself for disappointment
Why does TTC make women so crazy?
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I should trust that my body knows what its doing, and know realistically that having sex even just ONCE during your fertile time will get you pg if its meant to be.
Can somebody talk me down? Lol. I think I'm about to have some kind of hormonal woman freak out....
HAHA, I love this GIRL!!!!!

Thing is, I don't know that anyone WILL be able to talk ya down...I mean, you'll HAVE to have your hormonal woman freak out until you don't...well I found that to be true for ME anyway..
I mean, there's this "easy" part of the cycle..menses, and days leading to O, but after O it's a free for all emotional roller coaster...Constantly wondering day to day, hour to hour, COULD THIS BE THE MONTH....
I've had LOTS of freak outs and you've been apart of MOST of them

but it wasn't until I had this revelation of peace, and OK NESS that it stopped...It WOULD be SUPER SWEET if it were like BEFORE TL and TR but it's not...and I think we all pretty much know that...
I think it's OK to have the emotions and wonderment and other things we go through..b/c it defines OUR unique journey....I'm NOT excited that it's taken ME 13mo and still(as of NOW) no sticky bean, but it's now apart of me...SO i just trust that what we DO go through is GOOD thing in the bigger picture even when we can't understand it...
I DO want to say that there's NOT ONE second you add to your day by worrying...so try not too, but I know for us, it's "natural'' TO worry... I like to focus on the POSITIVE things(this has taken LOTS of practice), the things I DO have when I start to worry or get disappointed before it's even time....
It's not worth it I know it,but yet still find myself falling into that trap...but it's best and a better quality of life TO just let life be..do all you can and then be happy that you were able to do that...
I DO hope that helps, won't be disappointed if it doesn't

I'm rooting for ya though sweetie and really think you'll be blessed b/c you take care of your body and waited to let your body heal after TR....
Good times a coming!!!!
