TTC #1 and anxiety/phobias

[socitycourty]

So my DH went back and forth for years about kids. I honestly thought we never would and now we are TTC. This is our 3rd cycle.

Since I was young, I have always had anxiety and phobias. Most seriously, I have emetophobia or fear of vomiting. I know it sounds ridiculous but I had it forever. I have finally gotten better, but I still have my days. Also I had panic disorder (which is gone) and GAD.

I am happy that we are TTC but I think it is just another anxiety for me. Also since I do have these anxieties and now am taking the plunge, I just want it to happen ASAP before I start to get too stressed out. Does this make sense? We just want our one child so bad and I just don't know how to calm down.

 

[Jazavac]

I feel for you when it comes to emetophobia. Mine's not been diagnosed by a doctor, but there really is no reason for me to go share it with a white-coat of any sort.

I am okay with my pets' puke. I can watch them, I can clean up after them. No big deal.
I am pretty bad with other people getting sick. I will not freak out, but I won't be the one assisting them in any way or cleaning up. I'll do my best to get away from any situations involving other humans.

I am absolutely freaking out if it's - me. I am about to turn 34 and I haven't vomited since I was 16. I still remember every single moment of it. The sound, the smell, the feeling. I have not eaten pears or drank pear juice since. I stay away from anything pear. I get something really similar to a panic attack every time I even get a hint of some possible stomach trouble. I refuse to vomit even when I realistically really should. I choose to suffer instead.

I have no other disorders or phobias (like I said, emetophobia is self-diagnosed ), but it does bother me every once in a while that, well, I might actually get sick if/when I get pregnant. At the same time, I'm sure I'll live.

 

[jaydee79]

aww

bless ya hun... i know its frustrating and probs just a matter of time and patience but take ya time and dont get so upset over it,3 months isnt that long those sickeness fears seem like you could be wanting to get it over and done quick with wanting to shut your eyes to just get it over with, and possibily putting yaself on abit of the guilt trip with those TTC baby blues prehaps also alittle same as us ladies do sometimes,your not alone iv been pregnant b4 and was sick right the way through the whole pregnancy but the midwife once said to me if you feel like that it means the baby could be possibley healthy and its turning out to be alive and kicken and well so i wasnt worried about the sickness so long as the baby was healthy and alive and well, that was the main thing which gave me hope to have a healthy little girl, but im sure it will happen eventually in the meantime my fingers are croxxed for you best of luck and lots of dont be affraid of sickness hun and ur not being silly at all i guess a few ppl get alittle worried about the dreaded morning sickness or what it actually feels like and frightened how long its gonna last etc, but dont worry and try to not let anxiety overtake just relax and try not to worry about those symptoms just be calm and take ya time

 

[socitycourty]

That's kind of how I feel, just closing my eyes and getting past it! But I really want a child and it took me so long to get to this point.....it just seems like ages.