TTC #1 Hopeful and Obsessed! lol

[StarGazerRose]

I know i'm not out til the fat lady sings, but I can't handle this anymore... I want a reason to feel this way -- not just a stupid hormone level.

I'm using the little 88 cent Walmart ones, cause the others are too expensive when I don't know what I'm doing. My friend gave me a DCB years ago with 2 sticks, but I lost the thing... I might try one of the FR and see --- maybe I'll buy one or two Sunday afternoon if AF doesn't show.

I don't think she'll show cause I'm so used to her now showing when she's supposed to. I mean I have no luck, why would I think that the first time I O I should get my baby? ... Urgh ... great now the tears are coming and i'm at work .... alright (after typing the next paragraph the tears are gone)
Can you not have your period after you O? Should I expect her to show like forever late? Maybe I should request my Provera just in case? ... I'm all confused right now.

So how strong do you think cravings are? Like Hangry "I gotta have this or you'll die" Or the ... mmm this sounds good/I'd rather have this/search around the room til you find that item you want?
Do cravings even start before you are confirmed pregnant?
I again am eating spicy stuff.... I still hate spicy stuff .... What is wrong with me?! ....

Wait am I the only one who Hasn't gotten AF yet? I don't want to be the one you all want to be waiting on...and end up with her ... now I feel bad.

 

[greenarcher]

Nope! I'm still waiting, and Belle's about in line with me. Not sure about Sil.

Everyone is different, so I have no idea when cravings are supposed to start. Just enjoy the spicy food!

 

[StarGazerRose]

I'm about to go buy a bag of Jalapeno chips from the vending machine .... I've never had anything like them before, but I want them.
(Eh my lunch wasn't as spicy as I thought) oh well. . .

Good I'm glad I'm not the only one waiting, added pressure isn't needed right now! Occupying myself by reading every other thread/forum site out there and I'm forgetting people's cycle info I've read.

 

[BelleNuit]

Star I think you are just a couple days ahead of Green and I. AF is due next weekend for me.

If you did O you will Always** get your period approximately 2 weeks afterwards, unless your pregnant.

Unfortunately progesterone can also cause cravings. I always crave fattier foods in the TWW. Pretty much every early pregnancy symptoms can also be a progesterone symptom LOL. That's why I gave up symptom spotting in the TWW. It's so frustrating!

 

[StarGazerRose]

Yeah I looked up about cravings ...
Omg I'm burning my mouth *fans tongue* I'm an idiot I shouldn't have got these things ... I hate spicy food ...

Well at work my Photoshop crapped out on me. Refused to open anything, no matter how I tried to open it. And then ... It deleted my serial number ... And the serial number is on my OTHER laptop which has no battery power (to even turn on)
So i have nothing to do now ... Wasting time at work *eyeroll* is SO much fun!

 

[StarGazerRose]

OMG SRSLY? Days of being dry and sticky/lotion cm shows today…?? Good sign? I reeeeeeaaaalllly hope so!


Ok Archer… you wanted pictures?
*sigh* idk y. But here they are

Spoiler

Thursday is First one
Friday is Second one

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[sil]

I think I'm the only one not in the tww, haha! I'm waiting for ovulation still. Last cycle I ovulated around cd30/31 (I forget exactly which day but it was a 46 day cycle). The irregular long cycles led me to start vitex this cycle. I am on cd12 and fingers are crossed for earlier ovulation this time.

I was just about to type a long reply to everyone else but I noticed I only have 5 percent left on my phone so I'm going to have to finish reading and replying to everyone when I get home in a little while.

Fingers are crossed for everyone in the tww!

 

[StarGazerRose]

I think my cycles are only what they are because of the pills i've been on too. If I didn't take then my cycles are like 300+ days long (cause I probably won't have a period til I take the pill again)
I honestly don't know what to do if AF actually shows, It will be the first natural one since um ... I was a teen! (and after rewriting this a few times ...) There are too many questions to follow up with that... So i'll stop before I start sounding like "Debbie Downer".

 

[greenarcher]

I feel like I can squint a line into both of those tests... but the photo is kind of dark. Excited for tomorrow's test!

Sil, are you using opks? I think you mentioned, but my brain is too full to keep track :/

I'm totally testing when I get home! Expecting negative this early, but I don't care! I'll link to a testing thread

 

[greenarcher]

I think cm is a good sign star!

I try to keep my chart and info on ttc updated in my signature so people can keep track

 

[BelleNuit]

I think I see a line in Fridays test Star. Woo hoo! Hopefully it'll darken up for you.

 

[StarGazerRose]

Oh wait Crap... I switched them ....
The one on the bottom should be Thursday <<--- that's the one that had a line when I looked at it today...

And I'm not testing tomorrow, I gotta use my time to get ready in the morning (second job is more picky about being on time - retail)

So my last test like those is gonna be on Sunday. (I'll probably buy a few FR anyways)

 

[BelleNuit]

I'll keep my fingers crossed for an earlier O for you Sil.

 

[StarGazerRose]

Another lotion/creamy CM day!
Boobs haven't bothered me the entire TWW until yesterday (and maybe thursday) ... and it's like some one is jabbing me in the arm pit.

 

[BelleNuit]

Well I'm 7/8 dpo now. Usually by 11-12 dpo I start spotting after that I lose hope. So I am going to revel in the hope for the next couple of days before I have to face reality again.

 

[StarGazerRose]

Keep your head high! Fx'd for you.

 

[greenarcher]

Star, you said you're not testing today right? I tested this morning with a cheapie and bfn. Not worried about it. Still really early! Enjoy it Belle

 

[StarGazerRose]

Yeah I only have one more cheapie, and i told hubby I was gonna test with him. And he's off so it's not like I can go buy more before he's up (he's up at like 6 and I get up at like 12 )
I'll probably pick up the other few cause I've had no sign of AF today.

 

[StarGazerRose]

Well ladies, it's still drying, but it currently says BFN. &#128553; Really wanted it to have some sort of line as it was reading it. Oh well.
I can't freak out yet, I have at least a week before I need to ask the doctor for help.
Probably gonna pick up a few more cheapies to test through out the week and maybe a frer or fr. I really didn't want to take those until I knew I have a line for sure.
But. Kinda feeling out right now.

 

[StarGazerRose]

Wanted to share my dream(s) with you. I don't care if you wanna interpret or not but here they are:

Napping Dream:

I was standing in a huge washing machine, filled with water. At first i thought it was running (swishing around) but it was just me moving around. Then the nasty part-- I peed, I peed so much it raised the water level up to my chin. - end of dream​

Last night:

Multiple dreams it felt like of positive tests. For some reason I can't recall anything else of the dreams.

Was having an ultrasound done and I have no clue why cause "I wasn't pregnant " but the ultrasound zoomed around and in… found the egg being fought over by tons of sperm. I got so excited and continued to watch, but never saw anything else.
Everything was metallic silver, shiny and dark.
A little bit like a black and white version of "look who's talking" movie opening sequence.
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