so took Femara this cycle, and was supposed to have IUI, but then a saline sonohystogram (sp) made it evident to my dr we need to remove my fibroid. So she wanted us to save our money and wait to try IUI after surgery which will be next month, she said we could still try naturally though. So we did, and my short cycle has me a day late, but clomid, extended my cycle to 29 days (the full 14 day luteal phase), so I haven't tested as monday will be day 30, and I've had a few random symptoms, but googling has them as both early signs of pregnancy, and as just normal pms crap because of Femara. Anyway, I just want to vent into the ether, as I chose not to tell any of my friends we were trying, cause ... i don't know why, i guess so that i could get to surprise them if it was THE MONTH. It's just, it's all I can think about, and everytime I go to the bathroom, I mentally prep myself for blood with mantras of "you have a better chance for a healthier pregnancy after the surgery, you'll have the May baby you want, you have to pay your insurance max both this year and next year either way, you can get your tattoo saturday, IT WLL BE OK!" but i know I'm going to bawl when i do see the blood, and I'm just so tired after nearly 3 years of trying. as much as my husband tries to understand it, he doesnt. (deep breathe) ok.... end rant.
soon!
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I'll be having some of those tomorrow!
here's to hoping I wont need it. Can't believe I'm getting married in 6 days it feels unreal (and very stressful lol) 
