Early_Bump
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Ok Ladies well this is my last ever post on the pregnancy boards...
Firstly a huge thank you for all your support and messages they do mean alot..
Max Ashley was born on Tues 13th Oct @6.47pm weighing 1lb 14oz he then fought hard for 2 hrs and 13mins but sadly fell asleep in my arms at 9pm.
In the end i went in bcos i had a heavy bleed in the morning at around 8am... i had terrible belly ache and to be honest with the amount of blood thier was i honestly thought he was gone already...
When i got thier he was fine... but they agreed to transfere me to a level 3 hospital incase max was about to arrive. I felt he was contractions started to come and they were around every 12-15mins and weak.. but hey did get a bit stronger then stopped at lunch but i was left with a throbbing type pain...constantly... at this point my waters were draining very heavy and were pink stained.... i was getting a temp and felt thou i might have an infection....
At 3pm i left for preston hosptail a half hour ambulance ride away... felt very tender on the way and was flooding with fluid...
Got thier and they were concerned but said they would want to section me as planned not as an emergency so maybe not til the morning... however i was running a temp that was just goign up and up and up... they had bloods from blackpool as they'd done bloods in the mornign which showed a crp(infection marker) of 13 which is more or less normal anything below 10 is normal....they then took more blood and done an exam... cervix was only 1cm but the flood loss was huge during the exam... in meantime i was shivvering and my temp was now sat at 38.9...
Then at 5pm they came in to say my bloods had come back it had gone from 13 to 110.... and they had decided that it was time to get max out as he was better out than in....
So thats it i was put to sleep Max was born and as i came round at about 8pm i was told that sadly he was too sick and that they'd done all they could.... i was in shock mode crying screaming it was just heart breaking...
We then went to NICU me on my bed and Max was christened which was all got on my hand held cam i was tlaking to him telling him how loved he is.... they were pumping in 100% 02 and his sats(his oxygen) levels were never above 5-6 they should be at least 88... he was starving himselve of oxygen his lungs just couldnt be ventilated.... it was the saddest moment of my life...
We then had him out for a cuddle and he was gasping so we had them remove his tubes and he died 6 minutes later at 9pm in my arms as i was telling him how much we loved him...
I had a Classical c-section and was sterilized during it, my choice before the opp but god im regretting it now... i cant get my head round the fact that i can never have another baby... im missing max so much... i spent 3 days in hospital took over 700 pics and then on friday we brought him home with us and he spent the night here with us... yesterday i took him to the funeral home and we visited today... tomoro i will change him and wash him and place him in his coffin and then he will come home again till thursday which is the day we say our final goodbye.... we've choosen his plot which is right next to his big sister Ella...
Im living in hell and its so painful i miss him so so much my heart is aching for him... the hardest part is he was bigger than lily she was 1lb 10oz and we held her when she was 2wks old and weighed 1lb 13oz... so its just so hard to take in that max is bigger than her yet he couldnt stay....
Love to you all and best of luck in all your pregnancies...https://i170.photobucket.com/albums/u256/beautiful_bump/SDC11334.jpg
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Firstly a huge thank you for all your support and messages they do mean alot..
Max Ashley was born on Tues 13th Oct @6.47pm weighing 1lb 14oz he then fought hard for 2 hrs and 13mins but sadly fell asleep in my arms at 9pm.
In the end i went in bcos i had a heavy bleed in the morning at around 8am... i had terrible belly ache and to be honest with the amount of blood thier was i honestly thought he was gone already...
When i got thier he was fine... but they agreed to transfere me to a level 3 hospital incase max was about to arrive. I felt he was contractions started to come and they were around every 12-15mins and weak.. but hey did get a bit stronger then stopped at lunch but i was left with a throbbing type pain...constantly... at this point my waters were draining very heavy and were pink stained.... i was getting a temp and felt thou i might have an infection....
At 3pm i left for preston hosptail a half hour ambulance ride away... felt very tender on the way and was flooding with fluid...
Got thier and they were concerned but said they would want to section me as planned not as an emergency so maybe not til the morning... however i was running a temp that was just goign up and up and up... they had bloods from blackpool as they'd done bloods in the mornign which showed a crp(infection marker) of 13 which is more or less normal anything below 10 is normal....they then took more blood and done an exam... cervix was only 1cm but the flood loss was huge during the exam... in meantime i was shivvering and my temp was now sat at 38.9...
Then at 5pm they came in to say my bloods had come back it had gone from 13 to 110.... and they had decided that it was time to get max out as he was better out than in....
So thats it i was put to sleep Max was born and as i came round at about 8pm i was told that sadly he was too sick and that they'd done all they could.... i was in shock mode crying screaming it was just heart breaking...
We then went to NICU me on my bed and Max was christened which was all got on my hand held cam i was tlaking to him telling him how loved he is.... they were pumping in 100% 02 and his sats(his oxygen) levels were never above 5-6 they should be at least 88... he was starving himselve of oxygen his lungs just couldnt be ventilated.... it was the saddest moment of my life...
We then had him out for a cuddle and he was gasping so we had them remove his tubes and he died 6 minutes later at 9pm in my arms as i was telling him how much we loved him...
I had a Classical c-section and was sterilized during it, my choice before the opp but god im regretting it now... i cant get my head round the fact that i can never have another baby... im missing max so much... i spent 3 days in hospital took over 700 pics and then on friday we brought him home with us and he spent the night here with us... yesterday i took him to the funeral home and we visited today... tomoro i will change him and wash him and place him in his coffin and then he will come home again till thursday which is the day we say our final goodbye.... we've choosen his plot which is right next to his big sister Ella...
Im living in hell and its so painful i miss him so so much my heart is aching for him... the hardest part is he was bigger than lily she was 1lb 10oz and we held her when she was 2wks old and weighed 1lb 13oz... so its just so hard to take in that max is bigger than her yet he couldnt stay....
Love to you all and best of luck in all your pregnancies...https://i170.photobucket.com/albums/u256/beautiful_bump/SDC11334.jpg
https://i170.photobucket.com/albums/u256/beautiful_bump/SDC11310.jpg
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