red_head
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Bit of a weird post, with only tenuous link to pregnancy - sorry - just really need some advice.
I had an early miscarriage at the beginning of March. I was distraught, having anxiety attacks and went into work and made a mistake, which was a stupid slip of the mind - no damage done, but I went into a client file which I wasn't supposed to - didn't read anything, didn't look at anything, literally just clicked into it. I realised what I had done, came out of it and then carried on as normal. I suffer from depression and anxiety, and honestly was in too much of a haze to really think about what I'd done.
Anyway, a week later I got pulled into the manager's office, and told I was suspended pending a disciplinary hearing.
I had an investigative meeting a month later, when I apologised, explained what had happened. My manager tried to trick me - they asked if I had ever done anything like that before - I said no and they said 'well we know you have'. They then said I went on records of clients which weren't open to me - which I had, but only because of valid reasons, all of which I could explain. At that time my manager basically said at the end of it I was going to be sacked. My union rep was appalled and did make a complaint. I haven't heard anything since, until today.
Today I got a call from my manager telling me to go into the office tomorrow to discuss coming back to work. I assume this means the 'complaint' was found to be groundless.
I just feel completely overwhelmed. I have been so anxious about all of this. We've been having fertility treatment (only clomid at the moment), which I've had to put on hold. I have been in such a dark place I've had to phone the samaritans, and been prescribed anti depressants and anxiety medication. I haven't left the house in three weeks, and before that only left to go to my counselling appointments or the doctors for about a month (ironically I'm too anxious to go to my counselling appointments at the moment!!).
Prior to all this, I felt something was going on at work - I had to have time off sick last year as I was diagnosed with a neurological condition, and was in hospital for some time. That left me with some difficulties, such as slower processing speeds in terms of brain function, but I seem to be regaining that now. Work were not exactly supportive about the time off, even though it was covered by the disability act. I also noticed a lot of my emails were being cc'ed to my manager etc. I was referred to occupational health 3 months ago, but have heard nothing from them. I had very irregular supervision, and none of these were given to me to sign off on the records. I raised with my supervisor that I was concerned about how I was managing on several occasions, but was told that all the feedback they had from clients and other staff/management was positive, and they had no concerns.
During this process, I have had no contact from work, other than the invites to, and meetings, even though suspension is supposed to be reviewed regularly. I was not told I could have a union rep. I was not allowed to get my personal belongings from work. I was escorted off the premises, and told I could not talk to any of my colleagues - I have had to ignore messages from friends at work for 3 months.
Anyway, the outcome for me is basically that I don't feel I can go back there. The thought of going back to the office makes me feel physically sick, and I just start shaking. The way I was accused of going in to other files makes me so worried, as imagine if I clicked on the wrong record or something - this could all happen again. I just feel completely unsupported. On the other hand, I really do not want to leave the company, as I actually enjoy the type of job I do, and also have been there a number of years, have friends there, and would like the maternity pay when we eventually get a sticky bean.
So my question - do you think I could raise a grievance requesting a move to a different department? What should and shouldn't I say at the meeting tomorrow? They informed me so late, and the appointment is so early that I can't speak to my union rep before going, and was told I could not have anyone with me at the meeting.
Basically, please help - I am so overwhelmed and just don't know what to do!
Thank you.
I had an early miscarriage at the beginning of March. I was distraught, having anxiety attacks and went into work and made a mistake, which was a stupid slip of the mind - no damage done, but I went into a client file which I wasn't supposed to - didn't read anything, didn't look at anything, literally just clicked into it. I realised what I had done, came out of it and then carried on as normal. I suffer from depression and anxiety, and honestly was in too much of a haze to really think about what I'd done.
Anyway, a week later I got pulled into the manager's office, and told I was suspended pending a disciplinary hearing.
I had an investigative meeting a month later, when I apologised, explained what had happened. My manager tried to trick me - they asked if I had ever done anything like that before - I said no and they said 'well we know you have'. They then said I went on records of clients which weren't open to me - which I had, but only because of valid reasons, all of which I could explain. At that time my manager basically said at the end of it I was going to be sacked. My union rep was appalled and did make a complaint. I haven't heard anything since, until today.
Today I got a call from my manager telling me to go into the office tomorrow to discuss coming back to work. I assume this means the 'complaint' was found to be groundless.
I just feel completely overwhelmed. I have been so anxious about all of this. We've been having fertility treatment (only clomid at the moment), which I've had to put on hold. I have been in such a dark place I've had to phone the samaritans, and been prescribed anti depressants and anxiety medication. I haven't left the house in three weeks, and before that only left to go to my counselling appointments or the doctors for about a month (ironically I'm too anxious to go to my counselling appointments at the moment!!).
Prior to all this, I felt something was going on at work - I had to have time off sick last year as I was diagnosed with a neurological condition, and was in hospital for some time. That left me with some difficulties, such as slower processing speeds in terms of brain function, but I seem to be regaining that now. Work were not exactly supportive about the time off, even though it was covered by the disability act. I also noticed a lot of my emails were being cc'ed to my manager etc. I was referred to occupational health 3 months ago, but have heard nothing from them. I had very irregular supervision, and none of these were given to me to sign off on the records. I raised with my supervisor that I was concerned about how I was managing on several occasions, but was told that all the feedback they had from clients and other staff/management was positive, and they had no concerns.
During this process, I have had no contact from work, other than the invites to, and meetings, even though suspension is supposed to be reviewed regularly. I was not told I could have a union rep. I was not allowed to get my personal belongings from work. I was escorted off the premises, and told I could not talk to any of my colleagues - I have had to ignore messages from friends at work for 3 months.
Anyway, the outcome for me is basically that I don't feel I can go back there. The thought of going back to the office makes me feel physically sick, and I just start shaking. The way I was accused of going in to other files makes me so worried, as imagine if I clicked on the wrong record or something - this could all happen again. I just feel completely unsupported. On the other hand, I really do not want to leave the company, as I actually enjoy the type of job I do, and also have been there a number of years, have friends there, and would like the maternity pay when we eventually get a sticky bean.
So my question - do you think I could raise a grievance requesting a move to a different department? What should and shouldn't I say at the meeting tomorrow? They informed me so late, and the appointment is so early that I can't speak to my union rep before going, and was told I could not have anyone with me at the meeting.
Basically, please help - I am so overwhelmed and just don't know what to do!
Thank you.
