We've lived in this house for i think... 7 years? Or so. We never decorated at ALL because the day we moved in my dad had a blood clot on his brain and it was just me, my mum and my brother trying to move everything in. My dad died in 2007, we're in a town we HATE, the neighbors are awful, we don't have the funds to decorate and even if we did, it's the foundations of the house and the memories that come with it that make it so difficult. At the moment we struggle a LOT. The bills, rent etc totals up to more than my mum gets in wages. We've looked at exchanging but because the house is such a dive nobody wants to exchange. The bathroom was converted to a shower room for my dad as he had terminal cancer... Which is SO inconvenient with a baby. We're also in a really unpopular town. Anyway, I was thinking of getting a loan, to pay for maybe the deposit on a 3 bed house, which would be ideal. We could then move away from here and leave the bad memories the house brings behind. But once we'd paid the deposit, we then wouldn't be able to afford to pay the rent monthly which would be around £800, maybe that isn't much but atm we pay £470 and we're struggling so that much is just crazy. I've said I could afford £100 a month towards the extra rent, but that still doesn't cut it. I'm so lost and I don't know what to do, I hate seeing my mum like this. All we want is a fresh start And the council wont rehouse us because we're adequately housed. They obviously don't think about the stuff that comes with living in the house your husband and father died in I hate the way all this works.