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I was asked how i was today by a family member who lives in another country. To which i said i find pregnancy hard and mostly lonely. I was told its my hormones talking?! I wish it was only that. Can i say hubby works alot and im home alone all the time. He is struggling to connect to our bub as we have been through so much with our losses. We moved away from family to be close to hubbies work and we have not made friends where we live. Generally people here keep to themselves and there really arent any support classes even. Its nothing like other countries where there is such a sense of community. Most ppl have families and do their thing. I lost my mum to cancer and gran to emphysema within 2013. They were my life.
This pregnancy is our miracle baby after 12 years and 10 losses. Anxiety of preg after loss is a whole other kettle of fish! U hold your breath waiting for the next milestone to come and bub is still in your belly. I just feel hurt that ppl think im being hormonal or irrational if i say pregnancy is tough..i feel lonely or that i get no support even from family an hour away telephonic or otherwise. I feel as if i should grin and act like nothing is wrong if im asked but why should i. I should be able to express myself. Feeling heartsore.
Ps. You girls are my online support. Without you all there is nobody. So from the bottom of my heart and toes, thanks for being there.
This pregnancy is our miracle baby after 12 years and 10 losses. Anxiety of preg after loss is a whole other kettle of fish! U hold your breath waiting for the next milestone to come and bub is still in your belly. I just feel hurt that ppl think im being hormonal or irrational if i say pregnancy is tough..i feel lonely or that i get no support even from family an hour away telephonic or otherwise. I feel as if i should grin and act like nothing is wrong if im asked but why should i. I should be able to express myself. Feeling heartsore.
Ps. You girls are my online support. Without you all there is nobody. So from the bottom of my heart and toes, thanks for being there.