DH and I have been trying for > 2 years with various "mishaps" in between e.g. pap smear scare (I stopped for 6 months to take the cervical cancer vaccine jab), laparoscopy to remove ovarian cysts/fibroids/polyps. I've been to see TCM, fertility specialist and even recently started acupuncture - something I never thought I'd dare try. Am on 3rd round of clomid 150g, just went for CD12 scan yesterday. eggs are there but not growing so seems like clomid is not working for me. I've to go back for blood test in Feb to check my progesterone level whether I ovulated afterall but doc did say it's small chance. He said I can either go to 200g clomid after that or take a rest and go the acupuncture way (I was mixing and he said that makes it difficult to tell what's not working) or start injections. I feel so down after every visit to the gynae. Especially when I see so many pregnant ladies at the clinic. I just don't understand why it's so difficult for me. I've coming to 35 next year and just want so much for it to happen before that. I'm tired and frustrated. Feel like giving up. But I'm not ready for ivf or adoption. Don't know what to do. I know everyone said shouldn't be stressed and that the more you want it the less likely it'll come. But it's just so so so difficult... I get so stressed at not being stressed it's not funny. Sorry if I've just made you read another typical long whiney ttc story. I just need a place to vent. DH seems more relaxed than me about it and I don't know whether he's really as ok or he just don't want me to fret. I don't want to make him feel bad either. But I feel so guilty for not being able to give me kids - he loves and wants kids very much, that I know. aaaaarrrrrrrrrrrgggghhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!