JayMari
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I'm very grateful to have a healthy active little baby growing inside of me, but today at my 20 week scan I was very dissapointed. I cried all the way home at the knowledge that i am having a little boy. I think the dissapointment mainly stems from how I feel about my baby's father , also my boyfriend... I've been feeling so distant from him lately, I don't want him around or touching me. I feel like my little boy will look just like him. I don't want to be with my baby's father forever but now I'm trapped. Sometimes I wish he'd just be a deadbeat and leave me alone but he's estatic about having a son so I know he's going to want to alwayssss be there. A nightmare as I was crying I was feeling like I would t love my little boy as I would love a little girl, it made me feel so bad and guilty that I thought that way of my son. The baby's dad also wants him to be a junior, I cannot take having to look at my son and call him this mans name, it's just not happening. I'm so down and I feel depressed about this I didn't know I would feel this way, the thought of having a boy never crossed my mind and if it did I'm sure I never thought I would feel like this. What can I do to feel better about this news