What happened? Please help! :'(

[xoxoWondering]

Well Happy New years...This is how mine started out. literally...barely an hour into 2015 I find this on my pad.
im not sure if the pics showed up or not. If so here they are...if not well I guess this post is irrelevant.








What is this thing that fell out of my lady parts? I'm posting in the miscarriage section because it seems to fit..
this is as good as the picture could turn out, i took the pics on my phone. when I used the camera the flash was way to bright and you might confuse it with rudolphs nose. My phone ended up taking a better picture.
If you're grossed out by the picture...why are you reading this?

It just...Ugh it feels weird. It feels like a sack of some sort...you ever feel a deflated balloon? Like you feel that something could fit in there? thats how it feels, Not the ballooney texture, but hopefully you know what I mean.
Is it a miscarriage? A tumor? Did one of my ovaries fall out? Oh god i'm dying aren't I.....
Great way to start 2015 off.
It seems like a bloodclot but none like I've ever seen before...it seems like a sack.
I'm freaking out.
My last NORMAL period was november 11th (I remember because my dog went into heat the day before], I started the depo provera shot november 26th . My boyfriend and I had unprotected sex every day from november 30th- December 7th, He pulled out each time but a little bit of his baby juice, about half a teaspoon got in me when we did it on december 7th, I thought nothing of it since I was on depo.
I started spotting December 22nd, and from then on until December 29th, it was just brown spotting, not enough to go through my underwear but enough to wear 2 pantiliners [I wear two because I hate the fact they dont have wings. I kind of overlap them to make my own wings]

from december 29th and still continuing I'm bleeding like its a period. Today I had really bad cramps and went number 2 alot today. I was just getting ready to go to bed, I went to the bathroom to change my pad and I found this....thing just sitting on my pad.
What....the ....hell...is ....it.

Its hard to tell in the pictures, but its about the circumference of a loonie [Canadians will know what a loonie is, others just google it]
Please help.
I don't think I had a miscarriage....But I'm definitley not ruling that out either...I just don't like the looks of whatever this thing is. I've had a miscarriage before...but I've never really paid much attention to the detail. This uh....thing kinda just fell out of my lady parts. I felt like something was coming out earlier this evening but I figured it was just more blood because I had my period [Only reason why I STARTED depo was so I wouldn't have to have a period...Sick of buying pads every month, thats money that could go to better things]

I put it in a container so I can take it to the hospital tomorrow to see if they can figure out what the hell it is. But I figured I'd ask on here first since the hospital in my town is incompetent ands stupid and probably couldn't diagnose a common cold.

[I didn't flip it over in the pic so you could see the other side, the otherside of it is the same shade of light pink as most of it]

(btw Im 21 years old, I don't know if my body weight would have anything to do with this. I'm thin but im not a stick]
Im sorry that I seem to be rambling on in my post...I just don't know whats going on...and I'm scared. If it was a miscarriage...I tell my boyfriend and he'll accuse me of lying to him about going on the depo shot and that I tried to get pregnant on purpose...

 

[xoxoWondering]

Sorry for posting again.
I just need answers.
I can't sleep. I'm scared yet at the same time I feel emotionally numb because I don't know what to think.

 

[SleepyBaby]

I didnt want to read and run but i have no idea

Are you still bleeding or cramping? usually a miscarriage has those in common with it, it does look like it could be something like a miscarriage, to me, an untrained eye whoes taking a stab in the dark :S

I wish i could be of more use sending you lots of hugs and positive thoughts x x

If your bf accuses you of getting pregnant on purpose behind his back, go see your doctor and ask him to print out proof that you had the shot? tell your OH the facts and figures and all that jazz, or point out to him you need him to have your back, not to be acccussing your of being a looper!

Be sure to get checked out, the only way to know is to see a doctor, anything else is really a guess xx

 

[emma4g63]

hun didnt want to read and run but is there somehing in the sack??
did you open it ??

there looks to be something inside??

 

[xoxoWondering]

Urine test was negative, blood test was negative, they're gonna send the thing that came out of me to pathology, and tomorrow they're calling to schedule an ultrasound. The doctor said he never seen anything like it.

 

[xoxoWondering]

Had the ultrasound today, first time having one. I didn't mind the first part...jelly was cold. But The pelvic ultrasound....oh god that felt weird. Cold jelly isnt an enjoyable feeling to have in your lady parts, now i know how jack frost's wife probably feels.

I can't wait for the results of whatever came out of me, to come back from pathology. I have to wait a few weeks though...i really wanna know what that was.

 

[ace28]

any updates? What a scary experience!

 

[SleepyBaby]

. Cold jelly isnt an enjoyable feeling to have in your lady parts, now i know how jack frost's wife probably feels.

This made me lol

Any updates? Hope your doing well x

 

[traylee01]

also looks to me like something inside a sac, i would think early misscarriage and level never rose thats why not detected on bloods.

its very odd

 

[xoxoWondering]

FINALLY!!! Got the results back!



HISTOPATHOLOGY REPORT
-Minor Details, such as my name, date, location, doctor. I'm not actually gonna type this part out for personal reasons.
________________________________________
SPECIMEN:
A. Tissue passed vaginally

HISTORY: Patient brought it into the ER
NOTE:
___________________________________________
GROSS DESCRIPTION:
The speciment is submitted in one container labeled A.
Nature of Speciment: Not given. Please note: This tissue will be released to Angel Memorial Service.

The speciment consists of a congested tan piece of tissue recieved in formalin weighing 3 grams and measuring 2.9 cm x 2.4 cm x 0.8 cm. On section the cut surface shows an empty sac-like structure that measures 2.4 cm in greatest dimension. No contesnts are grossly identified. The wall of the sac measures from 0.2 cm to 0.3 cm in thickness. The speciment is serially sectioned and all submitted in A1 to A3. A1 and A2 two pieces each, A3 three pieces all submitted.

JB/jr

DIAGNOSIS:
TISSUE PASSED VAGINALLY:
-INFLAMED FRAGMENT OF DECIDUALIZED ENDOMETRIUM ONLY.
-NO CHORIONIC VILLI, HYPERPLASIA OR MALIGNANCY
-CLINICAL CORRELATION IS RECOMMENDED
MS/jp

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To sum things up, I asked the doctor if it was a miscarriage...and he said yeah.

I know that financially it was for the best, my boyfriend and I never would have been able to afford a baby, and if I never miscarried I'd have to keep it, Adoption isn't an option for me.
But....still...it makes me feel like I failed my job as a woman. Us women are meant to carry a child within is and give birth, its our physical and natural job. What if the time comes where my bf and I can afford a baby, and actually try to concieve this time, and I miscarry again? What if my body will never be good enough to keep something alive?

 

[xoxoWondering]

He also said that I passed everything, the ultrasound results were clean, so since everything came out theres no need for a D&C.

Also, I hate the part on the pathology report that says "This tissue will be released to Angel Memorial Service" ...Why don't they just shove a damn flashing neon sign in my face saying "DEAD BABY" -__- instead of trying to act subtle and nice about it.

 

[xoxoWondering]

Is it normal to feel sad about a miscarriage that happened this early? i mean its not like i was very far along...its not like it had a face...i feel guilty for being sad and crying....

 

[minties]

The results say it was just a piece of the lining of your womb? So why did the doctor say it was a miscarriage? Hiw stressful for you xoxo

 

[xoxoWondering]

The results say it was just a piece of the lining of your womb? So why did the doctor say it was a miscarriage? Hiw stressful for you xoxo

I asked him if it was a miscarriage and he said yes. And the part where it says "this tissue will be released to angel memorial service" seems to be pretty obvious, they wouldn't just send womb lining to that kind of place. Plus the bleeding i went through before i passed the tissue and symptoms i was having all points to miscarriage.

This would be my 2nd miscarriage, but the first one confirmed by a doctor. The first one i knew because of a weird dream i had (no ones gonna believe that, but If you knew the full story you'd understand )

 

[boobear2872]

I was going to ask the same question as the lab results are saying its an inflamed piece of lining of your womb. I would definitely ask more question especially because it says "inflamed". I would want to know the reason the lining was inflamed and if you needed some sort of treatment for it. Praying for you and thinking about you.

 

[KozmikKitten]

Just wanted to stop by and say that, yes, it is totally normal to greive and have these feelings even though you werent far along.

 

[xoxoWondering]

I guess I never really thought to ask, but the blood the doctor took and the ultrasound results were fine, nothing on them.
And its weird...when it happened I didn't really feel anything. Aren't miscarriages supposed to be oh I dunno....kinda painful? The first one I had a few years ago was [although it wasn't diagnosed by a doctor, i knew what it was...although it was different from this one]
I didn't have painful cramps, I had cramps but they were tolerable, more annoying then anything. They felt like "I really gotta go #2 cramps" which is what I spent most of the day doing [sorry if tmi]
I never really felt anything come out. When I went to go change my pad that night [well morning, it was past midnight on new years] I saw what I posted in the picture just sitting there on my pad. I never felt it come out, It just appeared. Like I guess I felt some kind of dampness down there but I never assumed it to be what it was, I knew I was bleeding/spotting but never really figured it would have ended up like this.

I guess I can compare it to when you're a kid and you lose a tooth, and your parents put money under your pillow while you're asleep and you don't even feel your pillow move [well, I can't say that for everyone] and the next day you wake up and you check under your pillow and somethings there, even though you never felt it happen.
Thats what this felt like.
But instead of the tooth fairy, it was the baby fairy...taking my baby away. well embryo....egg.....whatever you'd call it :\