What is wrong with me?

[Layla]

Im sorry to be the first to make a negitive thread, but i feel so comfy here already that i know you guys will help me through.

guys im so misriable and i dont know why, i have no reason to feel this way, i have 3 lovely kids, a nice house, a fantastic husband and a couple of good friends, yet im so unhappy its unreal!

I despreatly need a change, i need something to look forward to, i need a fresh start yet i dont know what i want a fresh start from, i can not make sense of it myself so i dont expect any of you to either, i just wish i knew what was going on in my head.

Yesterday things got so on top of me that i wanted to walk away and never come back, WHY??! i dont get it.

Its defo not PND because i have had that before, and i love Coby to bit and love spending time with him so its nothing to do with him.

I just need a break i think, im so fed up with waking up every day and doing the same thing over and over again, cleaning the house only to have it messsed up again 10 mins later.

I would love to go to work just to have some me time, but jase works shifts and i dont want to leave Coby with a childminder, plus, its my job to bring him up and be there for him untill he starts school, i truly belive that, so im selfish for wanting a job.

I dont even know where im going with this, im just letting it all come out, i want to move so badly, i feel trapped in this area now and i dont feel there is anything left for me here, Id love to move away with jase and the kids, somehwere i dont know and start new but with our debts its just not possible.

sorry i have ranted loads havnt i, i just want to feel good about myself and everything again, but right now i hate my life and shouldnt, i just dont get it

xxx

 

[Sarah_N_Braydon]

awww hun i didnt realise u were feeling like this im sending u big hugs
i wish i knew wot to say but i dont but if u do ever need to tlk im always here for u, u have been here thro everything for me and ill be here for u

 

[Arcanegirl]

(hugs) Layla.

What about a new hobby, if a job isnt an option?

 

[Imi]

Awww hun!!

Sometimes i feel like im a hampster just running round in the same wheel ... i find going out on the spur of the moment sometimes breaks up the "run of the mill" day...

Hobbie is deff an idea ...

(((( HUGS ))))

 

[Layla]

thanks for the hugs

I just want to disappear right now, so fed up with everything

xx

 

[Tam]

Hi hun,

I was feeling like running away with my OH & DD a few weeks back, I just felt I have nothing here and wanted a clean break, a fresh start, somewhere I didn't know anyone and no one knew anything about me................I have no idea where that came from at the time, but I think it had something to do with family always butting their noses in and conflict etc it does my head in!

After a few days or maybe a week it passed, but I still wouldn't mind moving and having a change of scene and a new life............

I hope you feel better soon babe, can't you take just 1 day and Jase have the kids and you go out and have 'YOU' time, doesn't matter if you sat in a cafe all day, but just be by youself and be able to think about anything & everything.

Sending you loads of hugs hun ((((((((((((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))))))))))