I know it's my hormones but I'm just so damn miserable and nasty. I'm snapping at my children and they can't understand why because we haven't told them yet that I'm pregnant. I'm a complete and utter bi*ch to my OH and he's doing the best he can to support me right now. I have four children already from a previous marriage but this is my OH's first baby and it should be a joyful time for him, but I'm totally ruining our relationship and tearing this family apart.. and I just can't seem to help it! I'm fine when I'm around other people, like friends or my mum tho. I wake up every day and promise myself that I'm gonna be nice and loving and calm.. but the slightest thing sets me off. Plus, I even start and cause arguments for absolutely no reason whatsoever! I even smacked my son the other day... fair enough he was being really naughty and answering me back. But he's 10 years old and I haven't smacked him since he was a toddler! I can't remember ever feeling so damn rotten like this in my other pregnancies. My OH just phoned and is really upset thinking I'm unhappy. I'm not .. I'm over the moon that we're having a baby. But why can't I show it?! When will this feeling end? Is anyone else as bad as me??? I'm totally destroying my family.