I've just had two early miscarriages in a row (with no AF in between). So that makes 3 total for me. Surely that means something's wrong and not just bad luck. Yet here I am, a week after my bleeding stopped, already back to obsessive opk testing twice a day. I don't want even to wait until AF. It's CD20 and no sign of a positive opk yet but I am determined to catch the surge. I don't even know why I'm trying anymore. I've been pregnant 3 times and each time has resulted in tragedy. I don't even enjoy being pregnant. I'm just a paranoid wreck after I get a and I've never had a reassuring prenatal appointment or scan. Ever. The odds are clearly stacked against me. Yet I couldn't live with myself if I missed a single opportunity to TTC. Why would I want to keep doing this to myself? Anyone else feeling like this?