Why do even the smallest losses hurt so much

[iwantbebebad]

Well, what I originally posted as an early m/c was actually a severe hormonal imbalance resulting in infertility. It just keeps getting worse. I am ashamed about this, but I got a faint + pg test at home and leaked fluid from my bb's. I was sure I was pg and starting bleeding suddenly. My reproductive specialist was suspicious after going over my AF charts and ordered tests. They confirmed that I not only did not have a pg, but I do not ov. I am sorry to all of you who put your hearts out to me. I didn't mean to mislead. My journal documents my journey and I left it as it is a part of this. Thank you all for your caring comments.

 

[BlackBerry25]

So sorry to hear about your loss. Please don't blame yourself.

 

[bigmama]

i'm so sorry hun

 

[JASMAK]

 

[Las78]

Hun, so sorry x

 

[dan-o]

So sorry iwantbebe

 

[babybuffy84]

Oh hun im sp sorry for your losses xxx
You cant blame yourself for these things happening though and it was only natural to worry after you having previous M/C's.
It hurts no matter what stage a baby is lost at and even if its lost earlier or later the hurt and pain is still the same.
I hope you get the strength you need to get through this with the help of your family

 

[chella]

Well... I just had my 5th m/c this morning. I wasn't even due for AF yet. My journal documents my heartache. I know there was probably not even a good implantation but it still hurts. Every one has hurt even when I wasn't in good places in my life. I would never minimize those losses of pg women who were further along or who had stillborn births. That would definitely be more difficult. I am just sad and feel broken. I wonder what all those little lives would have been like. I don't even know if I want to try again. I think I got so scared that I stressed and caused it myself. That it the worse part. Hugs to all on this forum. My heart is with you all.

I am so sorry for ur loss, please dont punish urself as it wasnt ur fault

take care and i kno its hard but dont give up sending msg me if u ever feel like a chat xxx

 

[Mynxie]

huni there's no such thing as a little loss thinking of you xx

 

[jen35]

Sorry hun, big hugs

 

[CarCam]

My midwife told me that being nervous won't cause a miscarriage, so please don't blame yourself. There was nothing you could have done.

I am so sorry for your loss and heartache.

 

[heleninaseb]

oh dear I am so sorry
don't blame yourself, of course you get stressed and worried but it's never a cause of miscarriage
and it's normal that it hurts it's not small
it's something we try to create, we want to bring to this life because there is so much love to give and beauty to gaze...
it's been a week and a day I miscarried and I just feel like crying today seeing other friends scans and hearing their happy expectations
sure I am more than happy for them
but it's painful it tortures me somehow...

I am also a little worried to try and relive this but I feel like trying soon, I know my gyno said wait a month, get a period...but it seems so far...

I send you lots of positive energies, take the time you need to heal
if you really want to be a mother, you'll be
keep believing ok?

xo

 

[kellyo]

I am so sorry for your loss.

I know what you mean about the small losses hurting so much - I was due on AF 2 days ago (I think) - I did a superdrugs own pregnancy test yesterday and it came up positive - I then did 2 clearblue ones and they were negative. This morning my AF started so I don't even know if I have had a miscarriage or not but for me to think I was pregnant yesterday and then to have my happiness snatched away from me today has hurt so much - not stopped crying all day. I have also been disheartened about trying again - I feel the disappointment is too much to bare.

Again I am so sorry for your losses - here if you need to chat. xx

 

[Wobbles]

*hugs* to you

Nomatter how soon yoru loss is knowing there was a pregnancy its does break you.

Are you experiencing reoccuring chemical pregnancies?

x

 

[iwantbebebad]

Well thank you to all for such loving support. I updated my journal with what is going on. When I first got the negative beta at 7dpo (WAY TOO EARLY) I dispaired but the pg continued in full force. Some girl came onto my beta thread and told me I was crazy and what I did was like telling people I won the lottery just because I bought a ticket. I told her to shut the hell up and stay off my posts. LOL. I would never be negative to someone here. That is horrible! Well, it will be ok. Does anyone know how long it will take to recover from all this? I am guessing it should resolve like a normal AF since it was so so early. I expelled the tissue first when I started bleeding pink mucous. After that it stopped and when I awoke I was swimming in AF. Seems normal enough now, a little more crampy than usual. Well a lot more, but I always cramp on CD1. This is CD2 and it should have calmed down. It was really bizarre but when the tissue came out (Just clotty stuff) my bb pain disappeared immediately. Like my body just said "bye bye!" I trust my body. I just feel sad. Hopefully I will ov again soon.. Thank you all

 

[DiddyDons]

So sorry

Donna xxxx

♥Sophie's Website♥

♥Mummy Misses You So Much Sophie♥31.01.08♥
https://i433.photobucket.com/albums/qq53/donnapickering/4507-181833-265605-a-O-1.jpg
♥Fell Pregnant With Sophie After Not Having AF for TWO Years..She's My Perfect Miracle! Diagnosed With PCOS Dec 08. Just Started Metformin-Hoping For Regular AF's♥​

 

[iwantbebebad]

Dearest Diddy-You are a lovely girl... I thank you for giving me your hugs... You all are such a blessing... I pray for you all to find happiness. Thank you again...

 

[iwantbebebad]

Diddy do you have a journal? I went to Sophies website several times. I think it is a beautiful site.

 

[DiddyDons]

I have a TTC journal on here.....just search through my posts..

Donna xxx

♥Sophie's Website♥

♥Mummy Misses You So Much Sophie♥31.01.08♥
https://i433.photobucket.com/albums/qq53/donnapickering/4507-181833-265605-a-O-1.jpg
♥Fell Pregnant With Sophie After Not Having AF for TWO Years..She's My Perfect Miracle! Diagnosed With PCOS Dec 08. Just Started Metformin-Hoping For Regular AF's♥​

 

[Widger]

Sorry for your loss. That is all I know pregnancy about having mc after mc, hopefully my baby will come next time.