Why is TTC such an emotional painful ride?

[Miss406]

Evap after evap, I painfully get my hopes up. Day after day I am getting headaches trying to find the line. I think realisation has just hit home, if these were genuine BFP's they would have progressed.

My LP is 11 days and I am 10dpo today. My chances are extremely slim. I am sat here in tears because I am so fed up of this, it's only our 4th month trying too. Early Cycle days you wait for ovulation, coming up to ovulation you test test test, sometimes twice, three times a day, I panic I don't ovulate, last cycle I panicked on CD14, I then ovulated CD15, this cycle I panicked on CD17 and ovulated probably on CD18. Symptom spotting, testing early, evaps and horrible tests. Giving false hope and the painful emotion is getting to me now.

I've agreed with my Fiance if or rather, when arrives we are getting a sitter and going to the pub because one night I just want to be out of it!

I've googled every symptom possible and even compared my chart to others on FF. Convincing myself their patterns and dip is 'like mine' and I still am in with a chance.

I feel so emotional. Some one please help me, I need my sanity back!

 

[mzdyce]

I can commiserate. I am one thought away from coming undone because it seems like it is taking forever to happen for me. I see in your family status that you're a mom; so keep positive [I know sometimes it's tough to do so] that it happened before and will happen again [verrry soon].

lotsa and warm hugs sent your way.

 

[Miss406]

Thanks hun! Just feeling ever so frustrated!

 

[babiiblu]

It's a very tough ride. We've been at it for a year and a half, and it doesn't get easier. We have 3 other kids, and 4 angels...2 are during this past year and a half.
I get so tired of ppl saying, just relax and it will happen or "you so need to have another baby already!!" The 2nd comment is from a dear dear friend, that is very young and just adores my other kids and I know she doesn't mean in a bad way. Still it hard to hear.
Chin up, and when and if AF arrives, you go out and have a good time and just try to "forget" for a night. Good Luck!!

 

[Miss406]

Thanks hun! I'm highly considering leaving B and B at the moment. I get that people are excited to share their BFP's but to announce it in every section of the board is wayy too much for me to handle at the moment, and to be fair - a little insensitive.
Thanks for your kind message, I send you gentle hugs back and hope the next bean sticks for real! I've been there, I've had 6 miscarriages now and still no investigations have been done, or tests because I have 6 earth children it's like they don't care! I always pay for early pregnancy scans to check the viability of the pregnancy but I'm not sure if I can afford to go Private to see a fertility specialist!

Big hugs, you keep your chin up too. Take what ever people say with a pinch of salt! Are you NTNP or temping etc? I think at the moment I'm going to stop TTC all together, use protection and just focus on my wedding. Have a year to ourselves then expand our family. Just can't deal with TTC at the moment! Sick of it all to be honest. That said I am part of a trial at the moment so will have to have this cycle as our last month! I'm going to throw my tests and thermometer away! Remove temptation!

 

[babiiblu]

I really don't know what to call what we are doing...not TTC but kind of NTNP. Even after all this time TTC and TRYING to NTNP its always in the back of my mind. I am considering trying acupuncture as it is more likely to happen than any fertility help from Western Medicine/Specialists. Our Insurance won't even cover the blood work to check for issues or a SA for hubby. Was referred to specialist, but couldn't go due to the cost.
As far as the BFP posts...they aren't even supposed to post them except in the announcement thread for that exact reason. When I joined this site 6 years ago, I accidentally made that mistake and got a stern reprimand from the moderator! I didn't even realize there was a specific page for it. :/
The good thing and seems rare thing about this site is that you can find someone that can totally relate to where you are at. I found a nice but not super active group for ppl ttc "large-ish" families. (Didn't realize more than 3 was large!!) Some of them a struggling too, and have previous little ones.
Now, I've found you, and vice versa we can talk and vent whenever.

When is your wedding? We eloped so, I always enjoy hearing about real weddings