Wishing, wanting, waiting.....TTC for a year PLUS!

[tryforbaby2]

hahahahaha!! doink. There are sooooooo many different expressions for having sex arent there? What's the weirdest you've heard? I think the weirdest ones I've heard are splacking, and also skibidy bip. Weird! What did you do last night? ah we skibidy bipped. You what!! (heard both those from The American btw!)

I have never heard those expressions before!!! I am a dirty talker to my husband so I just say "wanna F me?" Dont worry, I do not have a big potty mouth to anyone else! How about Banging! Gettin' down, roughin' it up, getting it in!! Ugh! I cant control myself!!! hahahaha

well it will be a merical if i get pregnant this month... hes hardly touched me which is annoying as hell as he wants this as much as i do

if you take a look at my journal it will tell you i finaly got it in the end.. and skye stayed in bed sleeping till this morning and it was wonderful at last lol.. told andy i want it again tonight and tomorrow and he says im gettin it twice for my birthday

I am not a journal reader or a writer, no time. But I am glad you got it in!!!

Hello - can i join you ladies? We have been TTC for 14 cycles and have our first inital fertility consultation in Nov as DH has low count, low motility, low normality!!! There seems no apparent reason why, he does not drink, no drugs is very healthy and takes every vit pill i give him - bless!!!

:wave: So is your ticker right and you are 10dpo??? What are you doing while ttc? And of course you can join!!! My hubby takes everything I give him too.....thats when I remember to give it to him!!!

HoneyBee - outing yourself as a stalker Yer so cute. It is funny how you knew Liz was English! You must have ESP but instead of extra it is english sensory perception!!

Liz - we are doing IUI partly due to male factor issues, partly due to my narrow cervix.

Why can't my waist be narrow rather than my cervix?

Is this your second cycle with IUI??? Or third? I feel like I am missing something. As honey and I say to you all the time.......we are praying for you.

well i just had my so called best friend get in contact with me to only send me a copy of her scan on my phone from the 22n sept... i would of had mine this week or next but i had lost it... now i feel like shit

It does make you feel like shit right? I wouldve been 27 weeks this week. Tell me about it. It totally sucks. I am sorry Sometimes when I am grieving I wish I didnt see him/her kicking and punching at my ultrasound, ya know??? And my sister is 28 weeks so I have a daily reminder of what I lost and that she, who didnt want this baby, gets to have it. Blah.......totally sucks Anna. It sucks to try for a year to then finally get pregnant to lose it and have to deal with the shit again.......blah.....sorry for the rant.....

 

[SquirrelGirl]

MEH.... one of my fav shows is suddenly getting into an infertility story line. booooooo. she apparently has a 'hostile uterus'. This after she had a miscarriage in the season finale. Thanks Grey's Anatomy. Just what I want to watch....

I know what you mean! It seems like every show I watch suddenly has a story line like that. I watch tv to escape from my problems ttc, not be reminded of them!

EXACTLY! This is why I watch stupid, mindless tv. My hubby likes to watch insightful, educational things. Which I do too, but mostly nowadays I just want to veg out and not think about anything!


YAY WEEKEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[honeybee28]

wahoooooooo for the weekend!!!!!!

here I am, back from my first acupuncture!!!! Feel really woozy and chilled and relaxed.

I got there, and she asked me loads of questions about ttc, my lifestyle etc. She took my blood pressure and felt my pulses (apparantly we have 6 in our wrists and they're all meant to beat in time). She put loads of needles in my back for a while, and we sat there talking about energy lines etc. Then they came out and she did one on my chest, i had a little knot that was sore before she did anything to it, she said it's linked to my liver (ooops). Then she did a couple of points in my feet. She said it's all to kick start my energy.

She's not worried about my lack of baby thing at all, she said I need to start to feel like 'me' again and then it'll all click into place.

She also said that the conception line runs right up the centre of everyone's body, so having my belly button pierced hasnt helped!! She said at the clinic she does work at in london, they make ladies take them out there and then, lol. I've got a holiday coming up, I've agreed to take it out when I get back. I was thinking of getting rid of it anyway.

She said that we should be having sex every other day for pretty much the whole cycle!!! And she said I need to drink plenty of water, and try to sort my diet out. And get more exercise lol.

I'm going back on Friday. I think she makes a good point, the whole time I'm angry and impatient, it's probably not going to happen. I need to re-establish who I am, I've lost myself in amongst the ttc madness. Cor I sound like a right hippy chick dont i!!!

What an essay!! how is everyone?!

xxx

 

[SquirrelGirl]

I totally agree, Honey! I have been thinking the same thing-- how I need to get back to being me. I've put my life on hold "just in case" i got pregnant. But now I'm planning a cruise for January, and really just doing what I want when I want now. I figure in January when I go for my first I-word appt, I can start concentrating on it again, but until then, screw it. I'm going to have fun!

 

[lizlemon]

HI Honeybee - I have been having acupuncture since April and think its great. It is soo relaxing you walk out feeling a new woman with loads of energy, for the first few months I craved my sessions - which my lady said was normal and as time goes by the the nice feeling will last longer and longer. The really weird bit is when a leg point makes you feel stuff round your ovaries. Also I was told to eat soup for lunch as this increases heat in the womb, essential for implantation - mine was really cold to touch in beginning compared to the rest of me!

I think tryforbaby2 asked what we were doing to TTC so here's my list: Acupuncture for me, CBDM (this is new this month), clear blue ditigal ovulation sticks to check CBDM is correct as I normally only use 2 a month, now I know my body so well!, SMEP(now to every 3 days instead plus every day after , soft cups (2 months) concieve + and pre seed for about 4/5 months, various viatamines for me and DH. DH now eats nuts and apricots each day, and wears looser trousers etc gave up his can of coke a day and no longer uses the hot tub at the gym. Plus I gave up caffeine last October, but now drink a couple of cups a day.

Quiet a long list really maybe one day it will work, that or the doctors will fix my DH!

 

[honeybee28]

i eat soup for lunch every day anyway!! ahhh you had a cold tummy? She told me I didnt, but she said for people that have cold tummies, she fills their belly buttons with salt and then burns herbs on it lol, did yours do that to you?!
have you tried reflexology? I'm thinking about adding that next year if we're not knocked up by then.

squirrel - it sucks doesnt it. I keep saying my life wont revolve around ttc, but it always comes back to it. I need to break away but I dont know how!! I'm hoping things like acu, reflexology, massages etc will help de stress me eventually!

xxx

 

[tryforbaby2]

wahoooooooo for the weekend!!!!!!

here I am, back from my first acupuncture!!!! Feel really woozy and chilled and relaxed.

I got there, and she asked me loads of questions about ttc, my lifestyle etc. She took my blood pressure and felt my pulses (apparantly we have 6 in our wrists and they're all meant to beat in time). She put loads of needles in my back for a while, and we sat there talking about energy lines etc. Then they came out and she did one on my chest, i had a little knot that was sore before she did anything to it, she said it's linked to my liver (ooops). Then she did a couple of points in my feet. She said it's all to kick start my energy.

She's not worried about my lack of baby thing at all, she said I need to start to feel like 'me' again and then it'll all click into place.

She also said that the conception line runs right up the centre of everyone's body, so having my belly button pierced hasnt helped!! She said at the clinic she does work at in london, they make ladies take them out there and then, lol. I've got a holiday coming up, I've agreed to take it out when I get back. I was thinking of getting rid of it anyway.

She said that we should be having sex every other day for pretty much the whole cycle!!! And she said I need to drink plenty of water, and try to sort my diet out. And get more exercise lol.

I'm going back on Friday. I think she makes a good point, the whole time I'm angry and impatient, it's probably not going to happen. I need to re-establish who I am, I've lost myself in amongst the ttc madness. Cor I sound like a right hippy chick dont i!!!

What an essay!! how is everyone?!

xxx

Wow, honey, that sounds like you had a lovely experience with your acu lady!! I wonder how much it'll cost over here to try it.
I have to say I agree with your acu lady. I think after so long everyone loses their self over ttc and we forget to be the women were once were before we decided to ttc. But how do you get back to that now??? Must be so hard and I dont think I can do it.
Belly button ring is rubbish I say. I got pregnant with hailey with my belly button pierced with the pull out method. What a 1 in a million chance that was. I have had mine out since being pregnant with her, it got stretched anyhow.

I am so excited to hear of your acu appointments!!! Sounds awesome!!!

I totally agree, Honey! I have been thinking the same thing-- how I need to get back to being me. I've put my life on hold "just in case" i got pregnant. But now I'm planning a cruise for January, and really just doing what I want when I want now. I figure in January when I go for my first I-word appt, I can start concentrating on it again, but until then, screw it. I'm going to have fun!

Now let me ask you. Would you book a week long vacation for next fall right now????
We are supposed to book our next disney vacation for next fall and I am petrified!!! What would you do??
I love the 'screw it' attitude!!! I bet thats the winning ticket to getting the big bfp!

HI Honeybee - I have been having acupuncture since April and think its great. It is soo relaxing you walk out feeling a new woman with loads of energy, for the first few months I craved my sessions - which my lady said was normal and as time goes by the the nice feeling will last longer and longer. The really weird bit is when a leg point makes you feel stuff round your ovaries. Also I was told to eat soup for lunch as this increases heat in the womb, essential for implantation - mine was really cold to touch in beginning compared to the rest of me!

I think tryforbaby2 asked what we were doing to TTC so here's my list: Acupuncture for me, CBDM (this is new this month), clear blue ditigal ovulation sticks to check CBDM is correct as I normally only use 2 a month, now I know my body so well!, SMEP(now to every 3 days instead plus every day after , soft cups (2 months) concieve + and pre seed for about 4/5 months, various viatamines for me and DH. DH now eats nuts and apricots each day, and wears looser trousers etc gave up his can of coke a day and no longer uses the hot tub at the gym. Plus I gave up caffeine last October, but now drink a couple of cups a day.

Quiet a long list really maybe one day it will work, that or the doctors will fix my DH!

Wowzers!!! you have a big NICE list!!! I may follow along in your footsteps and try some preseed to put in my softcups!!! Let me know how you like your CBFM! I have been bidding on one on ebay, but havent won one at a good price yet!
Where are you at one your cycle???

 

[tryforbaby2]

Oh duh....11dpo....I see it now!!! Do you test during your tww???

 

[soph77]

wahoooooooo for the weekend!!!!!!

here I am, back from my first acupuncture!!!! Feel really woozy and chilled and relaxed.

I got there, and she asked me loads of questions about ttc, my lifestyle etc. She took my blood pressure and felt my pulses (apparantly we have 6 in our wrists and they're all meant to beat in time). She put loads of needles in my back for a while, and we sat there talking about energy lines etc. Then they came out and she did one on my chest, i had a little knot that was sore before she did anything to it, she said it's linked to my liver (ooops). Then she did a couple of points in my feet. She said it's all to kick start my energy.

She's not worried about my lack of baby thing at all, she said I need to start to feel like 'me' again and then it'll all click into place.

She also said that the conception line runs right up the centre of everyone's body, so having my belly button pierced hasnt helped!! She said at the clinic she does work at in london, they make ladies take them out there and then, lol. I've got a holiday coming up, I've agreed to take it out when I get back. I was thinking of getting rid of it anyway.

She said that we should be having sex every other day for pretty much the whole cycle!!! And she said I need to drink plenty of water, and try to sort my diet out. And get more exercise lol.

I'm going back on Friday. I think she makes a good point, the whole time I'm angry and impatient, it's probably not going to happen. I need to re-establish who I am, I've lost myself in amongst the ttc madness. Cor I sound like a right hippy chick dont i!!!

What an essay!! how is everyone?!

xxx

I had my acu yesterday too!
Emily, interesting how your lady said about your piercing, kind of like what mine said about my c-section scar!!

Anyway, yesterday she started off with needles in my wrists and the tops of my feet and connected them with little leads like jumper cables. SHe said it would put an electromagnetic charge through the points and connect the positive and negative ions or something like that. She jump started me!

Then she poked and prodded me in the belly and did a scar bridging treatment on my scar. SHe put a row of needles along the top and bottom of the scar and a few on my legs and left them there a while.

Then she took them out and put moxi all up and down the scar and 4 on my legs. She said let me know when they get hot. Well the leg ones got hot and she took them off, but the scar ones didn't - they just got a tiny bit warm before she whipped them off before they burnt me!! Apparently, I should have MUCH more feeling there. She said my scar area is very hard. One one side when you push in hard it feels like pins and needles, and the other side is kind of numb.

Then I turned over and she used another form of moxi (she uses a lot of moxi on me because she says I am blood deficient and moxi is good for increasing blood) on my back. It was called an elephant warmer. Like a metal bulb filled with burning moxi that heats up and she rubs my back with it, it was soooo nice and relaxing.

Apparently if you carry a lot of tension in your necks and shoulders, it relates to your abdomen. So get your dhs to massage, massage, massage!!!
She finished off with some needles in my back.

My official TCM diagnosis is, blood deficient and spleen deficient. She has also put me on an awful anticandida diet and I can't have coffee anymore!

 

[soph77]

I was just cleaning up my computer desk and I found a random unused ic hpt. I was perfectly happy knowing that I didn't have one in the house so I wasn't tempted to test and now it is staring at me!!!!!

 

[SquirrelGirl]

I totally agree, Honey! I have been thinking the same thing-- how I need to get back to being me. I've put my life on hold "just in case" i got pregnant. But now I'm planning a cruise for January, and really just doing what I want when I want now. I figure in January when I go for my first I-word appt, I can start concentrating on it again, but until then, screw it. I'm going to have fun!

Now let me ask you. Would you book a week long vacation for next fall right now????
We are supposed to book our next disney vacation for next fall and I am petrified!!! What would you do??
I love the 'screw it' attitude!!! I bet thats the winning ticket to getting the big bfp!

I've thought of that, as I may have an opportunity to go back to Italy summer 2011 with my mom. I would look into travel insurance. See if it would cover not being able to travel due to pregnancy. No idea if that would cover it, but it's an idea. I had been putting off doing things "just in case" and of course nothing happened. So I'm tired of it!!

 

[SquirrelGirl]

I totally agree, Honey! I have been thinking the same thing-- how I need to get back to being me. I've put my life on hold "just in case" i got pregnant. But now I'm planning a cruise for January, and really just doing what I want when I want now. I figure in January when I go for my first I-word appt, I can start concentrating on it again, but until then, screw it. I'm going to have fun!

Now let me ask you. Would you book a week long vacation for next fall right now????
We are supposed to book our next disney vacation for next fall and I am petrified!!! What would you do??
I love the 'screw it' attitude!!! I bet thats the winning ticket to getting the big bfp!

 

[SquirrelGirl]

I totally agree, Honey! I have been thinking the same thing-- how I need to get back to being me. I've put my life on hold "just in case" i got pregnant. But now I'm planning a cruise for January, and really just doing what I want when I want now. I figure in January when I go for my first I-word appt, I can start concentrating on it again, but until then, screw it. I'm going to have fun!

Now let me ask you. Would you book a week long vacation for next fall right now????
We are supposed to book our next disney vacation for next fall and I am petrified!!! What would you do??
I love the 'screw it' attitude!!! I bet thats the winning ticket to getting the big bfp!

I totally agree, Honey! I have been thinking the same thing-- how I need to get back to being me. I've put my life on hold "just in case" i got pregnant. But now I'm planning a cruise for January, and really just doing what I want when I want now. I figure in January when I go for my first I-word appt, I can start concentrating on it again, but until then, screw it. I'm going to have fun!

Now let me ask you. Would you book a week long vacation for next fall right now????
We are supposed to book our next disney vacation for next fall and I am petrified!!! What would you do??
I love the 'screw it' attitude!!! I bet thats the winning ticket to getting the big bfp!

 

[SquirrelGirl]

I totally agree, Honey! I have been thinking the same thing-- how I need to get back to being me. I've put my life on hold "just in case" i got pregnant. But now I'm planning a cruise for January, and really just doing what I want when I want now. I figure in January when I go for my first I-word appt, I can start concentrating on it again, but until then, screw it. I'm going to have fun!

Now let me ask you. Would you book a week long vacation for next fall right now????
We are supposed to book our next disney vacation for next fall and I am petrified!!! What would you do??
I love the 'screw it' attitude!!! I bet thats the winning ticket to getting the big bfp!

 

[SquirrelGirl]

I totally agree, Honey! I have been thinking the same thing-- how I need to get back to being me. I've put my life on hold "just in case" i got pregnant. But now I'm planning a cruise for January, and really just doing what I want when I want now. I figure in January when I go for my first I-word appt, I can start concentrating on it again, but until then, screw it. I'm going to have fun!

Now let me ask you. Would you book a week long vacation for next fall right now????
We are supposed to book our next disney vacation for next fall and I am petrified!!! What would you do??
I love the 'screw it' attitude!!! I bet thats the winning ticket to getting the big bfp!

I totally agree, Honey! I have been thinking the same thing-- how I need to get back to being me. I've put my life on hold "just in case" i got pregnant. But now I'm planning a cruise for January, and really just doing what I want when I want now. I figure in January when I go for my first I-word appt, I can start concentrating on it again, but until then, screw it. I'm going to have fun!

Now let me ask you. Would you book a week long vacation for next fall right now????
We are supposed to book our next disney vacation for next fall and I am petrified!!! What would you do??
I love the 'screw it' attitude!!! I bet thats the winning ticket to getting the big bfp!

 

[SquirrelGirl]

hmph, having a hard time replying..... testing............

 

[SquirrelGirl]

hmph, having a hard time replying..... testing............

 

[lizlemon]

poor squirrelgirl, what happened to your internet?

Honeybee - never had salt in belly button, but have had moxi used and points massages - my lady has just qualified in point massage too. ANyways my abdomen is much warmer these days. SHe thought my main problem was mucus slowing my whole body down. After my first appointment i told my DH this, saying I do not know if i beleive this one - shewas spot on with other stuff - and DH said EERR YES you have a massive problem with constantly blowing your nose and tissues always in the bed - and I was oh yes that is what i'm always teased about by my family since a child..... strange i was so used to it i never noticed!!!

As for the CBDM the jury is out, I think it might be an expensive con. they say it moniters Oestrogen and LH, but on the stick it only ever had a control line and an LH line like the regular sticks and I could not see where there would be room from a line for oestrogen. I suspect that it works by saying high fertility when it start to detect LH. I'm a science teacher so I like to evaluate these things. SO the long an short of it personally it has told me no more than the regular digital sticks. I bought the CBDM on ebay after months of saying i dont need it, then one day got all I'm buying it, it might be the answer. but the aanswer turned out to be crap swimmers LOL Also I never test in TWW anymore, too much crying!!!

My list is long and I forgot I tried baby aspirin after a friend FS said he recomends it to couples who have taken a while to fall mot just those with recurrent MC.

Plus I so put my life on hold for the first 12 months, even though we said we would not. I ws so gutted at the year mark as it meant a WHOLE year of wont plan that justin case and we had said I would not be in my job for the new school year. The new school year was mega hard as it really signified what I had not managed to to!
On a more positive note since being given the swimmers news I feel a lot happier and enjoying life again as its out of our hands till the doctors tell us what's what!!!

Anyway very long post from me and hope everyone has a fab Sunday

 

[SquirrelGirl]

ha! heck if I know, liz!!!!! It was pissin' me off!!!!! I'd hit post reply and it would just hang there forever. I finally gave up. It never showed me actually replying until this morning, so I didn't realize it was posting it... though not exactly what I was expecting as I had written an actual reply to Tryfor's question.

Tryfor......... what I was trying to say.....................

I would look into travel insurance and see if it would cover cancellations for not being able to travel due to pregnancy. I'm in a similar pickle as I MAY have an opportunity to go back to Italy with my mom next summer. I desperately want to go as I know my OH will not want to go back there. I've been putting off planning other things, so right now I'm just doing what I want, though not planning tooooo far in advance. Otherwise, you could consider how much money you'd be ok with "losing" if you book a trip and then decide not to go. I know for the cruise I'm going to book for January, I'd rather lose that money and be pregnant. Though if I did get knocked up now, I'd still be able to go since it's not too far out. Now if you book so far in advance to where you'd be 8 or 9 months preggo, then is it worth it to you to lose that money by not going on the trip....

For me... I have come to the conclusion that nothing is going to happen until we get medical assistance, and since my first I-word appointment isn't til January, I don't think I personally have much to worry about here in the next few months.

Anyway, travel insurance.... check it out. Surely there's something out there that would work..... hopefully.

 

[SquirrelGirl]

liz. Yep, that year mark sucks pretty damned bad, doesn't it.... I had some "milestones" in my head too. Pretty painful to see them all pass by.