Jennifurball
Mother of 1 and a bump!
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I can't believe I am even posting this, the guilt is eating me up but let me explain why I feel this way...
I already have a gorgeous girl, so thought yes a boy would be nice as I am planning no more. But my relationship has ended kind of messily, my ex has turned out to be an abusive prick with a drink problem, not something I want around myself or my children, he has been harassing me for weeks, turns out he has kids all over the place, none of which he pays for or sees. All of his exes have stopped contact, so I am expecting with good reason.
I have since been told he is desperate for a girl, and if it turns out its 'another boy' then chances are he will back off. So naturally I am dreading it being a girl when normally I wouldn't mind. It is taking over my life, I feel depressed. He just wants control over me, the rare occasion he has seen one or two of his children it was just for show, a few photos on facebook, claiming what an amazing dad he is and he loves his kids, despite his ex telling me he has let her down for the past 5 years. Also the fact he told me I trapped him and I should abort. But now he is asking people for my due date and wanting to even be at the birth!! Yeah right.
He has just taken the shine off it all, and my 13 week scan has had girl replies so I am convinced it is a girl now and I feel awful that I am gonna feel dread when I am told for certain that it's pink. I have a gender scan on 10th August. It isn't fair on baby that this selfish git is making me not want a girl, even though I know my daughter would adore a little sister. I don't want him thinking he can call the shots after making my life so miserable already.
I already have a gorgeous girl, so thought yes a boy would be nice as I am planning no more. But my relationship has ended kind of messily, my ex has turned out to be an abusive prick with a drink problem, not something I want around myself or my children, he has been harassing me for weeks, turns out he has kids all over the place, none of which he pays for or sees. All of his exes have stopped contact, so I am expecting with good reason.
I have since been told he is desperate for a girl, and if it turns out its 'another boy' then chances are he will back off. So naturally I am dreading it being a girl when normally I wouldn't mind. It is taking over my life, I feel depressed. He just wants control over me, the rare occasion he has seen one or two of his children it was just for show, a few photos on facebook, claiming what an amazing dad he is and he loves his kids, despite his ex telling me he has let her down for the past 5 years. Also the fact he told me I trapped him and I should abort. But now he is asking people for my due date and wanting to even be at the birth!! Yeah right.
He has just taken the shine off it all, and my 13 week scan has had girl replies so I am convinced it is a girl now and I feel awful that I am gonna feel dread when I am told for certain that it's pink. I have a gender scan on 10th August. It isn't fair on baby that this selfish git is making me not want a girl, even though I know my daughter would adore a little sister. I don't want him thinking he can call the shots after making my life so miserable already.