Hello! I’m new here but have joined after watching the page for a while, I feel like there is no one else who understands how I’m feeling (or at least they are sick of hearing about it ) and I need to vent. We have agreed to try at the end of next year, which I am so excited about. I have always wanted to be a mum. I’ve been with my FH for 9 years (high school sweethearts) but despite that we have tried to take our time and really build good foundations. We are finally getting to that place: we have good savings, we own our own place, I’ve finished uni and have a pretty good job. We got engaged a while ago and will be married next year. All. I. Think. About. Are. Kids. I’m actually driving myself crazy with it. I watch births, I read books, I follow pages with cute baby things, I listed to podcasts. I think it’s actually becoming unhealthy but I can’t stop. My heart hurts from having empty arms. The other day we caught up with some friends at a BBQ and saw a bunch of acquaintances who are all pregnant or have brand new LOs. I cried in the car home. Has anyone else experienced this all consuming desire for children while they are WTT? FH wants to do NTNP before we launch into TTC but I can’t imagine being chill enough to not be secretly TTC even if he thinks it is NTNP I can’t un-know when I’m ovulating. Honestly I’m scared for TTC because if I’m this bad now I don’t know how I’ll handle actually trying and waiting to fall pregnant.