Anyone else find their heartbreaks in the lead up to xmas? All I want is to be sitting opening santa presents with a bunch of kids around me and singing xmas songs and playing with toys. Instead I am all alone and I have to go to work every xmas. I pass so many houses and I can see their lights on and hear the cheers inside. Every xmas morning I end up crying. It just reminds me that I don't have a family yet and it is the only thing in the world that I am left wanting.