I don't think I can do this all anymore.
All my dreams are shattered, except for having a wonderful husband (who is truly wonderful!!).
Career blown up in smoke, crippled before I even hit my 20s, miscarriages and all that, all the things besides having a wonderful husband, that I really wanted in life are gone. The one dream that WE both clung onto was having a family and after more than 4 years of trying and 3 MCs, I can't even get that right.
Just solved why I'm such a shopaholic really I suppose...cause all the things that I really want, I can't have, so I buy material things for the sake of it, for the short lived buzz of getting something that I want, cause what I really want I can't have.
The sensible part of me says "give up, stop trying, you're just gonna make the hole bigger to climb out of, don't you think 4 years is enough?" and the dreamer in me thinks "maybe somehow..."
All my dreams are shattered, except for having a wonderful husband (who is truly wonderful!!).
Career blown up in smoke, crippled before I even hit my 20s, miscarriages and all that, all the things besides having a wonderful husband, that I really wanted in life are gone. The one dream that WE both clung onto was having a family and after more than 4 years of trying and 3 MCs, I can't even get that right.
Just solved why I'm such a shopaholic really I suppose...cause all the things that I really want, I can't have, so I buy material things for the sake of it, for the short lived buzz of getting something that I want, cause what I really want I can't have.
The sensible part of me says "give up, stop trying, you're just gonna make the hole bigger to climb out of, don't you think 4 years is enough?" and the dreamer in me thinks "maybe somehow..."