2 chemical pregnancies....now what?

[May112]

I'm feeling so dejected and alone right now and I can't seem to shake it. We've been trying since sept 2013. I have one ovary, have cysts, was on clomiphene and metformin all to find out a year and a half later I ovulate fine n the problem was dh sperm motility. We've made changes its better. He got me pregnant in January, ended in chemical pregnancy. And I just think I had another chemical pregnancy although I didn't test. My never late period was 3 days late, then showed up while I'm at a family gathering around newborns and young kids and while being asked when we're going to have ours. All while I'm miscarrying in someone else's home. Just devastating. 😞 I don't know what to do now. I haven't even found the guts to tell hubby yet. Just sick of being the bearer of bad news and I feel like something is wrong with me. Don't know what to do now. My dr wants me to do an IUI. The naturalpath wants me to wait (stop trying) & do a detox, and all these weird practices. I just don't know.

 

[ShabbyShic]

I am so sorry you are going through this! I am too. Just had another chemical 2 days ago and it was so painful! My husband has 1% morphology. This was our 2nd iui. I think you guys should do what makes you feel comfortable. If you want to try IUI right away then do it! It only takes one healthy guy. But in the mean time your hubby should make some changes too. Mine quit caffiene, stopped taking hot showers, and he is on an array of vitamins. We are going to have him tested again next month. I'll keep you posted with any positive results. I completely get what your going through..the loss you feel and the sadness after a chemical is horrible. Knowing you have to do it all over again is so tough. But on the positive side you know that you CAN get pregnant and those little guys are strong enough to swim there on their own! So don't give up!

 

[SpartyMom05]

I'm sorry for your losses, I have had 2 chemicals as well and it's very hard. I even considered myself to be very positive but it can rattle anyone. Stay optimistic and shabbyshic is correct. You're not alone

 

[May112]

Thanks ladies. I think what also sucks about chemicals, is that you don't know what went wrong and technically there is nothing that you can really do to make things better next time. Makes me feel kind of helpless in this situation. The thought of another chemical freaks me out. I just want a healthy little one....who knew that would seem like a lot to ask for.

 

[Bee Bee]

I know EXACTLY how you feel.

We actually both started TTC at the exact same time and I have not had a succesful pregnancy either. I believe I have had 4 chemicals and I also just went through an ectopic pregnancy in December (right before chirstmas). The ectopic was worse because I got the "you're pregnant" call from my doctor, only to find out at the next blood test that my HCG had not doubled. It also took 5 weeks for the pregnancy to abort.

Really though, the issues are all mine. My hubbies sperm results are all stellar.

Either way, I know the feeling you have. Every once in a while I just get the feeling like it won't happen for me. I used to be able to picture myself, with a beautiful pregnant belly but now it's hard to even imagine it. All I can do every month is try my best and hope for the best. I have even started talking to my "future baby" and just trying to let it know that I am ready to be a mother because, really, at this point I am just desperate. lol. My hubby and I can not do IUI or IVF though, its just way too expensive.

I am on femara currently. I did manage to get pregnant with my ectopic on my 2nd round. I am now on my third round since the ectopic so I hope history will repeat itself.