2 Years Trying.. Yet Nothing.. Upset!

[Azasha]

Hey ladies...

I'm not sure if its the hormones.. but i'm feeling so stressed out and depress.. Wondering what we did wrong and still not able to have an angel in me..

It's so heartbreaking when you see your fellow friends having kids and expanding their families..

And there you are, rubbing your tummy wondering when will it be your turn... I feel like giving up on trying..... I feel like a woman who is not perfect at all.. Not able to give birth nor conceive like the others...

Just deeply soooo upset....

So sorry.. I just wanna express out what I'm going thru..

I wish you ladies the best ya!

 

[red_head]

I know exactly how you feel. I'm so sorry this is happening to you. I deleted all my social media in the end as I couldn't handle one more scan picture! Have you seen a doctor about this at all to try and find out what's taking the time?
Also, this is nothing you've done wrong at all; please don't blame yourself. Just think how loved and wanted your child will be when you do get to meet them! They will be the luckiest kid on the planet!

 

[Azasha]

Dear red_head, thank you for replying.. I was so upset right now.. lying next to DH and trying to calm myself down. I was lucky he is such a gentleman.. He had never judged me for not being able to conceive yet even after 2 years of marriage.. He and my in laws are so supportive that miracles do happen.. But I'm tired of seeing negative tests and all..

But this cycle, never happen before, DH kept saying I was pregnant.. And I'm not convinced. Even thou I'm feeling some cramps and nausea, dizziness and yellowish brown discharges..

I'm praying that i could have one before i reached my 30s.. currently cycle day 36.. no AF still.. sighs...

 

[red_head]

He absolutely shouldn't judge you; there is no blame anywhere, and both of you are equally involved in the process. It sounds like you have some promising symptoms so fingers crossed for you. I do think that if this cycle isn't the one, you and your husband should both get checked at the doctors; there could be something wrong which they could help with easily.

 

[Azasha]

Thank you for these caring words dear.. Really made me feel better..

I know and he hasn't judge.. unlike few of my friends who got divorced because they cldnt bear a child.. I felt sad hearing that from them.. they dont deserve to be treated like that.. but i am so thankful and lucky DH isnt like one of them..

Definitely.. I will have a gyn appt fixed soon.. just hoping for a miracle.. knowing that God has plans for all of us.. Just hoping that He is planning the one we are praying for..

Wishing the best to u too dear...

 

[BSN2MOM]

Absolutely normal to feel this way! Just remember to let your feelings out and then tell yourself to let it go from your mind (and body!). A friend of mine talked to me about this lately and I'm typically a high-strung/stressed out person to begin with, but she reminded me stress impacts our body, and she's totally right. I know my stress levels change chemical levels in my body, so something I'm keeping in mind is to do deep breathing as well as listening to some positive reinforcement videos on the internet !

I commented on your other post about his prediction and I'm so glad to hear your DH is supportive and it's great you're supporting each other through this time. I hope you find your answers soon!