30 weeks today. Suddenly it hit me.

[FayDanielle]

Well ladies, if someone said to me a year ago
'This time next year you will be 30 weeks pregnant'
I would have literally laughed at them!​

I didnt think babies were going to be part of my life just yet. So much has changed from the party girl I used to be. Dont get me wrong, Im so glad its happened, its changed me for the better. (Im not any better with money though, this still needs to change!)

So yeah, the whole point of my thread.
30 weeks today.


But this morning, I sat on the couch and the realisation hit me.

Im going to be a MUM in 10 weeks. (here come the tears!)
Im scared....really scared!
Not scared for the labour...Im scared to be a mum. Dont get me wrong, I love the little life inside me more than the world itself already...but like, what if I cant be a mum?
[God its so hard writing this, I just dont even know how to put into words whats running through my head!!]
What if I cant cope with a baby? What if something happens and I cant support her?

2ND ATTEMPT!!
Ive calmed myself down now...and just thought to myself.
Suppose its normal to be scared...I just think im a bit emotional over the fact im only 10 weeks away, which isnt very long, concidering I found out I was having a girl 10 weeks ago tomorow, yet it feels like yesterday!
Im probably not the only one who is going to feel scared, Im thinking its normal to worry, to wonder about life being a mummy.

I know deep down inside me, Im try my god damn hardest to do everything right by my little girl.
And If I do half what my mum has done for me, I know Ill be a fantastic mum.
Im gonna make my mum proud....and most of all, Im gonna make my little girl proud.



Sorry its turned out long girls, I just needed to sort of get it off my chest, I feel loads better now ive had my little cry and got my worry out!!
x

 

[Eabha'sMum]

we all feel like this fay, well at least I do! and i don't think anyone telling me would help, but here it goes... you are gona be a great mum, you care for her already. a lot of things will come naturally to you, look how you have already changed your life for her!

hope you don't feel so bad later
xx

 

[divershona]

i agree with Caoimhe your going to be a great mum because you love your LO so much already and alot of it will come naturally, and you've got all of us for support too

 

[Jadelm]

Aw sweetie you're gonna be a bloody fantastic mum! I can just tell!! I'm sure everyone will agree you can see how much you love her already and that's the number one thing you need, everything else will just come to you once she's here
And yeah everyone gets scared hun it's totally normal so feel free to freak out

xxxxxxxx

 

[Eabha'sMum]

fay the fact your concerned shows you love her loads... this may seem silly... but when i feel like this, i lie down, and rub my belly and tell her all the plans i have for her... and how much i love her already... and silly stuff like that
we are all here... xx

 

[amylou1992]

when your little girl is here you'll find things come naturaly too you, you start to pick things up, i.e when your baby is starting to get hungry, tired etc. may take a few weeks for it to sink in but when you have her in your arms in the most amazeing feeling eva!

 

[EffyKat]

You'll be a fantastic mum, the fact you're concerned about how good of a mum you'll be. You're little girl will be so proud of you and she already loves you. , I hope you feel better soon! x

 

[Sophiiie]

I agree with everything the other girls have said you'll be a brilliant mum!
I feel the same too, I guess it's because we're first time mums, and these little lives are so so important and we just don't know what to expect yet xx

 

[FayDanielle]

Thanks girls
You all know what to say to cheer someone up eh?!

to you all!
xx