I completely understand how you feel. I have had 3 losses in a row.. my 3rd being in April this year and I just don't have the strength or courage to call and book my referral for the recurrent miscarriage clinic yet.
After my loss in April, 5 woman on my department announced their pregnancies within the fortnight (usually we have 1, maybe 2 every few years). Its hard and it feels SO unfair. But the pain will get better and you will find your own way of getting through each day.
Mine was counselling (didn't work) and then alienation of anyone pregnant or with a baby (didnt work) and now I am just honest with people about how I feel and when they say insensative things and so far, its worked the best by far. I turn my loss dates into facts, my trauma into facts and that helps me detach myself when I talk about it.
I really hope you get your answers and when I have the courage, maybe I will too.